American fiction -- 20th century; Gold mines and mining -- Fiction; Western stories
Bruce Standing came, weaving his way, like a drunken man, through the
woods. He was sick; sick and weak. He muttered to himself constantly.
Lynette was at the top of his thought and at the bottom; she dominated
his whole mind. He was used through long years to such as Jim Taggart
and their crooked ways; he was not used to such as Lynette Brooke, a
girl like a flower and yet fearless. It had been his way to hold all
women in scorn, since it had not been given unto him during the hard
years of his life to know the finer women, the true women worth while,
more than worth the while of a mere man. He had held his head high; he
had mocked and jeered at them; he had been no man to doff his hat with
the flattering elegance of a Babe Deveril for every fair face seen.
So now the one thing which in his fiery and feverish mood galled him
most was the thought of being seen by Lynette as a man borne down and
crushed and made weak and sick. For most of all he hated weaklings.
"She laughed at me ... damn her," he muttered. And, as an afterthought:
"She shot me in the back, after the fashion of her treacherous sex!"
He had driven himself harder all day long than any sane man, wounded,
should have thought of doing. Now the thought, working its way
uppermost through the fomenting confusion of teeming thoughts, was:
"I'll let her go. I'll be rid of her." For already, deep down in the
depths of his heart, he knew that already a girl, a girl whom he
despised and had meant to pay in full for her wickedness, had intrigued
him; she had flung her defiant fearlessness into his face; she had
kept a lifted head and straightforward eyes; and ... those eyes of
Lynette Brooke! Deep, fathomless, gray, tender, alluring, the eyes of
the one woman for each man! Almost he could have forgotten, not merely
forgiven, her greater fault of laughing at his infirmity; if only she
had not been of the species, like Jim Taggart's, to shoot a man in the
back.
He meant to let her go free and he had his own reasons for his change
of front. Though she had laughed and galled him, though she had sunk to
a cowardly act and shot him when he was not looking, at least she was
not the coward which he had counted upon finding her; he gave credit
where credit was due. He had humiliated her sufficiently, dragging
her after him, humbling a spirit as proud as his own, making her his
handmaiden, calling her his slave. That was one thing. And another,
befogged as it was, was even clearer: In letting her go, in being
rid for all time of her and the lure of her eyes, he was protecting
himself, Bruce Standing, and none other! ... Fearless, he honored her
for that. And yet a treacherous she-animal; so he wanted no more of
her, no more of the look of her, the fragrance of her, the pressure
of her upon his own spirit. He held himself a man; a man he meant
to remain. And, for the first time in all his life he was a little
afraid....
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