And then before them all she raised herself on tiptoe, and kissed me on
the cheek--yes, before them all! As she went out of the church, running
a little eagerly for a step or two, to join her husband, who was
smilingly waiting, she looked back at me, and waved her hand; and so was
gone out into the sunlight, amidst a roar of cheering. I felt strangely
alone; but that was, of course, inevitable. The Barbara I had loved had
gone for ever out of my life; she had told me so, on that day when it
had come to the parting of the ways for us. Each of us had done our
part. I had been privileged to see the end that day, and now I must go
out into the world, and live in loneliness just so many years as might
be given to me. But I was no longer tired or hopeless; I had drunk deep
of life, and although there were so many things I would have been glad
to have had altered, there was yet so much that was better than I could
have hoped. I would linger here for a little time, on this spring
morning, and then would go on, to take up the quiet burden of my days.
I found my way back to the old house, and peered in at the gate. All was
changed here now: the garden no longer neglected, and the house looking
bright and fresh. There was no one about, and I crept in, and stood
again on that terrace, looking into the room. There were bright flowers
there, and the place was very different from what it had ever been
before. I came away, and found my way into that wood that seemed to hold
all my memories. I sat down there for the last time--reviewing, as it
were, my life, and looking back to see the boy who had painted here
among the trees, and had seen coming towards him, with a smile in her
eyes, the Barbara of long ago.
And so it happened that I looked up presently, and saw coming through
the wood the Barbara I loved: and it almost seemed, despite the passage
of the years, that this was the Barbara I had always known, and who was
unchanged. The heavy soiled garment of the years dropped away from me; I
was again a man with hopes and longings; I suddenly realized how much
this dear woman was to me, and how much we both might be, each to the
other. I stood there, bareheaded in the sunlight, holding her hands, and
looking into her eyes; and I was no longer old or tired; I faced life
again, with the spring in my veins and in my heart.
"We are all alone, dear Tinman," she said, using that familiar name
naturally. "I am the unknown woman, who has stood beside my husband's
grave, and yet have not mourned for him; I am the woman who has stood in
God's house to day, and seen my child married--just as I might have
married poor Charlie Avaline, years and years ago. Such a strange life
ours has been, my dear," she added softly; "it seems almost as though
you and I are left alone together forgotten and unknown in the great
world--with all our work done."
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