"Well, that's all right; but don't try that game again," he said.
"You'll be landing some of us into difficulties, to say nothing of
yourself, if you wander about in your present muddle-headed condition.
Stay where you can be looked after, and do as you're told."
I meekly promised that I would obey; I ventured presently, as we sat
there with the table between us, to put a question or two about the
past.
"I want you to tell me," I said--"I want to know what has happened down
at Hammerstone Market in all these years. You tell me that a new Barbara
has grown up to take the place of the old, but what of the old one?" It
was all absurd and impossible, and I was a poor shabby broken
grey-haired man, to whom love should mean nothing; but my voice trembled
as I asked the question.
"Your old flame?" he sneered. "Dead these many years."
"Dead!" I sprang to my feet and stared at him wildly; I remember that he
hurriedly pushed his chair back as though to avoid me. "Dead!"
"What is there to get excited about?" he cried. "She couldn't live for
ever--and besides, she treated you none too well."
"Dead!" I said again, for that thought had never occurred to me before.
I had seen her always young and fresh and unchanged; the curious thing
was that I seemed to see her so still, even though this other girl had
grown up in her image.
"And the new Barbara--the bit of a girl that our friend Murray Olivant
is so interested in--is like the old Barbara come to life again," said
Jervis Fanshawe, speaking as if to himself, and with his lips set in a
straight bitter line. "I hate her!--I loathe the sight of her. She
stands there"--in his excitement he had risen to his feet, and had flung
one thin arm above his head--"with the same devilish childish beauty her
mother had--that mother that laughed at me, and sent you to rot for
twenty years in a prison. I tell you, Charlie"--he dropped into his
chair again and leaned across the table, staring at me with wild
eyes--"I tell you that I have lain behind a hedge down in that place
where she lives--so close to her that I could have risen up and seized
her, and crushed the life out of her before she could cry out. Yes--and
with these hands!"
"She never harmed you," I reminded him.
"No, but she lives in the image of the woman who laughed at me, and set
me aside as something not to be reckoned with. And I've waited,
Charlie--by God!--I've waited!"
I did not guess then what was in his mind; I did not realize that the
deadly hatred of the man for the one woman he had failed to possess
could pass on through all those years, and grow again, stronger for the
waiting, and rise up stark and strong against the child. I had not
understood that any man could live for that and that only; could wait in
the snow outside my prison to seize me as an instrument ready to his
hand. I did not even then understand the man.
"The Barbara who died--the Barbara I loved," I said gently--"won't you
tell me about her?"
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