But, ye good beings, who have a heart, and find none, or who have the
loved objects only _in_, and not _on_, your bosoms, am I not, like the
Greeks, drawing all these pictures of bliss, as it were, on the marble
sarcophagi of your changed, slumbering past? Am I not the _Archimime_,
who, following after, mimics before you the mouldering forms which your
soul has buried? And thou, younger or poorer man, to whom time, instead
of a past, has only given a future,--wilt thou not one day say to me, I
should have concealed from thee many blessed forms, like holy bodies,
for fear thou wouldst worship them? and wilt thou not add, that, had it
not been for these Phœnix-portraits, thou mightst have cherished
lighter wishes, and had many fulfilled? And how much pain have I then
caused you all! But myself, too; for how could it fare better with me
than with the rest of you?
Your conclusion would, accordingly, be this: since you can never really
live pleasant days so pleasantly as they shine afterward in _memory_, or
beforehand in _hope_, you would, therefore, rather have the present day
without either; and since only at the two poles of the elliptic arch of
time one can catch the low music of the spheres, and in the centre of
the present nothing, you would, therefore, rather stay and listen in the
middle; but as to the past and the future,--neither of which can any man
live to see, because they are only two different poesy-gardens of our
heart, an Iliad and Odyssey, a Milton's Paradise Lost and Regained,--you
will not listen to them at all, or have anything to do with them, in
order that you may nestle down, deaf and blind, in an animal present.
By Heaven! sooner give me the finest, strongest poison of ideals, so
that I may at least not snore away my moment, but dream it away, and
then die on it! But the very dying would be my own fault; for whoso
would fain translate _poetic_ dreams into waking reality[91] is more
foolish than the North American, who realizes his _nightly_ ones: he
proposes, like a Cleopatra, to pervert the splendor of the pearls of dew
into a refreshing drink, and the rainbow of fancy to a permanent arch,
bridging over the rain-waters. Yes, O God, Thou wilt and canst give us
one day a reality, which shall embody and redouble and satisfy our
present ideals,--as thou hast, indeed, already proved to us, in our love
here below, which intoxicates us with moments in which the inner
becomes the outer, and the Ideal, Reality; but _then_--no, for the Then
of the life hereafter, this little _Now_, has no voice; but if, I say,
here below fiction could become fact, and our pastoral poetry pastoral
life, and every dream a day,--ah, even then would desire still remain
enhanced only, not fulfilled: the higher reality would only beget a
higher poetry, and higher remembrances and hopes;--in _Arcadia_ we
should pine after _Utopia_; and on every sun we should see an
unfathomable starry heaven retiring before us, and we should--sigh as we
do here!
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