"Let me not profane this by speaking of it. But take here my softly
spoken but firmly meant word, and lay it up in thy bosom, that so soon
as the probable war of Gallic freedom breaks out, I take my part
decidedly in it, for it. Nothing can hold me back, not even my father.
This resolution belongs to my peace and existence. Not from ambition do
I form it; though I do from an honorable self-love. Even in my earlier
years I could never enjoy the flat praise of an eternal domestic
felicity, which certainly beseems women rather than men. Of course
hardly any one else has _thy_ strength or disposition to take
everything great quietly, and silently to melt down the world into an
internal dream. Thou gazest upon the coming clouds and along the
milky-way, and sayest coldly, Cloudy! But dost thou not, prithee, allow
thyself too deeply in this feeling, in this cold vault? It is true, the
poison of this feeling will, in all parts of Rome particularly, that
churchyard of such remote nations, such opposite centuries, consume one
more sweetly than anywhere else; but couldst thou know the changeable,
except by contrast with the unchangeable, standing side by side with
it? and where does death dwell but in life? Let decay and dust reign!
there are, after all, three immortalities; although in the first, the
superterrestrial, thou dost not believe; then the subterranean, for the
universe may decay, but not its dust; and the immortality which ever
worketh therein, namely, this, that every action becomes more certainly
an eternal mother than it is an eternal daughter. And this union with
the universe and with eternity encourages the ephemera, in their
flying-moment, to carry and sow still farther abroad the blossom-dust,
which in the next thousand years will perhaps appear as a palm-grove.
"Whether I disclose myself to my father is to me still a matter of
doubt, because I am still in doubt on the subject, whether I am to take
his previous expressions against the modern French for sharp earnest,
or only as another instance of the sportive coldness wherewith he was
formerly wont to treat his very divinities,--Homer, Raphael, Cæsar,
Shakespeare,--from disgust at the mimicking idolatry which the vulgar
show to true elevation and to false. Greet my brave, manly Wehrfritz,
and remind him of our union-festival on the day when the news comes of
the demolition of the Bastille. Farewell, and stay by me!
"Albano."
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