and sharply insisted on both hearer and preacher growing better; upon
downright honest truthfulness; fidelity of friends; high-mindedness,
bitter hatred of suavity, snake-like movements, and weak
lasciviousness. Finally, he had concluded the devotions with a prayer
to God, that, if it should be his lot some day to lose his health or
understanding, or the like, he would still be pleased to let him die
like a man, and darted at once out of the church door. He put me,"
added Wehmeir, "almost out of my senses for terror, when he all at once
flew at me angrily; 'Mock corpse, why creepest thou about the grave?'
and I, pale and hurried, made my way home without having made the least
reply to him. But what says Mr. Count?"
Albano shook his head with vehemence without one enlightening word,
with pain and tears on his face. He merely took a sudden leave of all,
and begged them to pardon his haste; and sought the evening sun and
freedom, in order to read the letter of the noble man, and learn the
purpose of his journey. He struck into the old road to Lilar, where he
hoped to find, on the joyous southern breast of his radiant Dian
Southern gayety and Southern ways again; for his heart had been
upheaved by an earthquake, because, after all, many a wild sign in this
Schoppe, as it were an immoderate lightening and flashing of this star,
seemed to him to announce a setting and doomsday, which to his extreme
pain he was constrained to ascribe to the rising of the new star of
love, which had kindled this world of his nature.
122. CYCLE.
He read the following letter from Schoppe:--
"Thy letter, my dear youth, came duly to hand. I praise thy tears and
flames, which alternately sustain, instead of extinguishing each other.
Only become something, much, too, but not everything, in order that
thou mayest be able, in so extremely empty a thing as life is--(I
should be glad to know who invented it)--to hold out for all the
desolateness. A Homer, an Alexander, who have at length vanquished the
whole world and got it under them, must needs be plagued often with the
most tiresome and annoying hours, because their life, from being a
bride, has now become a wife. Much as I had palisaded and fortified
myself against that, in order not to mount over everybody's head, and
sit up top as Factotum of the world; I nevertheless, after all, came
out at last, unobserved and all standing, on the summit, merely
because, under my long contemplation, the whole circle of the earth,
full of foam-mountains and cloud-giants, had been melting down lower
and lower and crawling together; and now I gazed alone and dry-shod
down from my mountain-peak, wholly possessed with the bloodsuckers of
disgust at the world.
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