"Thou once mine! Be so again! I will still die, but only for thee, not
for a people on the battle-field. Forgive yesterday and bless to-day. I
have given up again my purpose of an excursion to meet a friend, in
order to throw myself upon thy heart this very day and draw out of
thy heaven and fill mine. I cannot wait until Julienne comes back;
my heart burns for thee. To-morrow I must at all events be in the
Prince's garden, where Roquairol at last gives his Tragedian. Come this
evening--I implore thee by our love--at eight o'clock, either, if it is
clear, into the cavern of Tartarus, whose gravedigger's finery and
Orcus-furniture will certainly be only ridiculous to thee,--or, if it
is cloudy, to the end of the flute-dell.
"Thou must take only thy blind maiden with thee. Thou well knowest the
espionage that besets us on all sides. I expect and desire no answer
from thee, but at the stroke of eight, I steal through Elysium to see
where stands the goddess, my heaven, my sun, my bliss, thyself.
"Thy Albano."
As by a lightning beam from heaven, her whole being was melted into a
soft, blissful glow; for she believed what the handwriting said, that
the note was from Albano,--however unexpected so sudden a conversion
appeared to her in him;--although it was really written by Roquairol.
Let us go back even to the gloomy source of the rushing hell-flood
which stretches out its ice-cold arm after innocence and heaven.
Roquairol had remained through the winter, with all the mortifications
of his ungovernable wishes, tolerably happy and good; the evening star
of love, although for him it rather waned than waxed, stood, however,
not yet below the horizon, but only under clouds. But so soon as Linda
had travelled off with Julienne--and indeed as he immediately guessed
and early learned--to Italy; then did a new storm sweep through his
life, which tore off his last blossoms and beclouded him with the
long-laid dust; for he now, as he had himself predicted to Albano, saw
the net coming up stream toward _him_ and the Countess, which should
take both prisoners. The eating poison of his old passion for many gods
and many mistresses ran round again hotly in all the veins of his
heart:--he fell into extravagant expense, play, debts, as deeply as he
possibly could,--set luck and life at stake,--threw his iron body into
the jaws of death, who could not immediately destroy it,--and
intoxicated himself with the sorrow of a savage over his murdered life
and hopes in the funeral bowl of debauchery; a league which sensuality
and despair have often before this struck with each other on earth, on
theatres of war, and in great cities.
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