Ex-convicts -- Fiction; Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- Social conditions -- Fiction; Self-sacrifice -- Fiction
What should she do?--for almost a month that question had hardly left
her: Should she beg her father to change his business ways, and to
restore his money to whom he had defrauded? She knew the power was not
in her, nor any other, to change him. Since he was going to continue
gathering in other people's money with his own, should she keep silent
and remain by him, and see that the money was spent in service of the
people? Or should she, refusing to live on dishonest income, withdraw
from his house and shape her own life?
She came out of her thoughts with a start to find herself shivering, the
bronze clock on the mantel pointing at two, and the glowing romance in
the fire-place cooled to gray ashes. When she reached her sitting-room
she remembered a yellow photograph of David that on the day he had
confessed his guilt she had tried to burn, and which she had since
tried to forget, but which she had often taken from its hiding-place and
gazed at in pained wonderment. She took this out of the drawer of her
writing desk, went into her bedroom and set it upon the reading-table
beside her bed. After preparing herself for sleep she lit the candles on
the table, turned out the gas, and lying with her head high up on the
pillows she looked with glowing eyes on the open boyish face. After a
time she reached a white arm for the picture, pressed a kiss upon its
yellowed lips, then snuffed the candle and held the picture against her
heart; and, lying so, she presently drifted softly away into sleep.
Paradise walked home with David that night. He did not think of the
barrier that stood between Helen and him--that must always keep them
apart despite her declaration that she would marry him. He thought only
of her love. This fact was so supremely large that it had filled his
present. At times he thrilled with awe, as though God had descended and
were walking at his side. Again he could barely hold down the eruptive
cries of his exultation; he clenched his hands, and tensed his arms, and
flung his face up at the far, white stars.
He strode through the night, too excited to think of anything but Helen
and himself. He and she--they were the world. But presently, after hours
of walking, his thoughts went to people without the walls of his
paradise. He thought of Rogers--and the misery of Rogers was an
accusation against his joy. He had gained everything--Rogers had lost
everything. He was ashamed of himself, and he tried to subdue his
happiness by thinking of Rogers's failure and hopelessness.
And the thought of Kate shot through him a great jagged pain. He
realised how fierce must have been the struggle that had preceded her
call on Helen; he realised that he owed his paradise to the apotheosis
of her love; and he realised, too, how utterly beyond his power it was
to make her any repayment.
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