“Yes, then,” she said, catching at the word, “p’raps then it will be
different—and—I mean we shall be older and know better, Johnny.
And—now—we can often see one another and talk like friends—and—” She
looked up to read his eyes, trembling.
Something cold took Johnny by the throat, and checked his voice.
“But—what—you don’t mean—that?”
“Yes,” she said, though it was bitter hard. “It’ll be best—I’m sure,
Johnny!”
Johnny gulped, and his voice hardened. “Oh!” he said, “if you want to
throw me over you might say so, in straight English!”
“Oh—don’t talk like that, Johnny!” she pleaded, and laid her hand on his
arm. “It’s unkind! You know it’s unkind!”
“No—it’s only plain an’ honest. I don’t understand this half-and-half
business—seeing each other ‘like friends’ an’ all that.”
One more effort she made to hold her position—but her strength was near
gone. “It’ll be better, Johnny—truly it will! You—you might meet
someone you’d like better, and—”
“That’s my look-out; time to talk about that when it comes. The other
night you let me kiss you, and you kissed me back—told me you loved me.
Now you don’t. Maybe you’ve met someone you like better.”
She held out no more. Her head fell on his shoulder, and she broke into
an agony of tears. “O Johnny, Johnny, that is cruel! You don’t know how
cruel it is! I shall never like anybody better than you—never half so
much. Don’t be unkind! I’ve not one friend in the world but you, and I
do love you more than anything.”
With that Johnny was ready to kick himself for a ruffian. He looked
about, but nobody else was in the shadowy street. He kissed Nora, he
called himself hard names, and he quieted her, though she still sobbed.
And there was no more talk of mere friendship. She had tried her
compromise, and had broken down. But presently Johnny ventured to ask if
she foresaw any difficulty with her parents.
“Father’s dead,” she said simply. “He’s been dead for years.” This was
the first word of her family matters that Johnny had heard. Should he
come to see her mother? The question struck her like a blow.
“No—no, Johnny,” she said. “Not yet—no, you mustn’t. I can’t tell you
why—I can’t really; at anyrate not now.” Then after a pause, “O Johnny,
I’m in such trouble! Such trouble, Johnny!” And she wept again.
But tell her trouble she would not. At anyrate not then. And in the end
she left Johnny much mystified, and near as miserable as herself, because
of his blind helplessness in this unrevealed affliction.
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