“MY DEAREST JOHNNY,—It is all over now and I do hope you will forgive
me for not telling you before. This is to say good-bye and God bless
you and pray forget all about me. It was wrong of me to let it go so
far but I did love you so Johnny, and I could not help it and then I
didn’t know what to do. I can never come to the classes again with
all this disgrace and everything printed in the newspapers and I must
get work somewhere where they don’t know me. I would rather die, but
I must look after her as well as I can, Johnny, because she is my
mother. Burn this at once and forget all about me and some day you
will meet some nice girl belonging to a respectable family and
nothing to be ashamed of. Don’t try to find me—that will only make
us both miserable. Good-bye and please forgive me.
Yours affectionately,
NORA SANSOM.”
What was this? What did it all mean? He stood in the gymnasium
dressing-room to read it, and when he looked up, the gaslight danced and
the lockers spun about him. The one clear thing was that Nora said
good-bye, and was gone.
Presently his faculties assorted themselves, and he read the letter
again; and then once more. It was “all over” and she asked him to
forgive her for not telling him before. Telling him what? She told him
nothing now. She would never come to the Institute again, and he didn’t
know her address, and he mustn’t try to find her. But then there was
“everything printed in the newspapers.” Of course, he must look at the
newspapers; why so long realising that? He went to the reading-room and
applied himself to the pile of papers and magazines that littered the
table. One paper after another he searched and searched again, but saw
nothing that he could connect with Nora, by any stretch of imagination.
Till he found a stray sheet of the day before, with rings of coffee-stain
on it. The “police intelligence” lay uppermost, and in the midst of the
column the name _Emma Sansom_, in italic letters, caught his eye. She
was forty-one, and was charged with drunkenness and wilful damage. A
sentence more, and everything stood displayed, as by a flash of
lightning; for he had witnessed the offence himself, on Saturday. Emma
Sansom was the married name of Emma Pacey, whom the boys called Mother
Born-drunk; and the woman was Nora’s mother!
Now it was plain—all, from the very beginning, when the child wandered in
the night seeking her strayed and drunken mother, and inquired for her
with the shamed excuse that she was ill. This was why he was not to call
to see Nora’s mother; and it was for this that Nora hindered him from
seeing her home.
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