Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing AmericaSills, Steven David Justin
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Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing America
Sills, Steven David Justin
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As she began to hum a tune on the radio random ideas pillaged through her
perspectives like unwanted guests her belongings: she wondered why it had so
far been a futile prospect to get her son to befriend the boy with the
unmemorable name; she thought that since both boys were champion sneaker
squeakers little else was needed beyond imagination and good will for children
to declare friendship; she pondered how despite the disposition of Mr. Petulant
and the forthcoming departure of the man with the unmemorable name, she was
still glowing from her time in the coffee shop; how her painting needed some
feral red brush strokes to increase its beauty and complexity; how each night
her exalted ideas imploded to recurrent nightly dreams of Candyman riding in
the white silk of her bare skin; how her recurrent dreams of Candyman were not
only of his physical touch but ones in which he made her perceptions coruscate
in the gleam of moonlight; mornings wondering whether the real truth of her
life was just those meager sordid yearnings for sexual intimacies; that
potential conclusion that intellectualism was nothing but one's own pretentious
wish to appear to herself as more than motion and rampageous sexual urgings,
hatreds, and fears that were vital to the survival of the species -- this all
flitted through her mind a second before she struggled to regain control of her
car.
Nathaniel's hands were grasping the steering wheel and there she was trying to
counter this jerk of the car to the right and contend against his Freudian
death wish. The memories of the many versions of Nathaniel at various ages
fleeted through her mind. What he was doing now was clear. Why he was doing it
was unfathomable in her consternation. A couple of seconds later the car darted
over a triangular cement slab and onto a yield sign. Like the car beaten down
in inertia, they were as sedentary as death and as inanimate as rocks. They
stayed this way for half a moment and then, when meaning to ask him if he was
all right, she reached over and slammed him hard on his face with one of her
strong German polar bear paws and his head slammed against the door. He took
the knock with tacit defiance and locked in whatever whimpering existed within.
It was one of his last Halloweens as a boy and perhaps his last time dressed
for trick or treat and it had come to this.
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