Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing AmericaSills, Steven David Justin
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Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing America
Sills, Steven David Justin
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" I don't need a damn thing," he said coldly. "You are the one who's here. You
are the needy one." He laughed at her. She knew that to him she looked foolish
even though that time of the Turk's execution in early girlhood had made her
immune to the opinions of others.
"You're here," he repeated.
"So I am," she said in her cold hubris.
He blew his smoke into her face. "Well, with the gender factor alone no man and
woman are interested in the same things nor are they all that compatible.
That's for sure." His voice drifted slowly on the stream of smoke flowing from
his mouth and from the effluvia of his lackadaisical scorn. "But to make any
type of relationship work -- even the most pathetic -- neither of them can just
stare at the walls day-in and day-out. One has to be interested in something --
business, rearing kids, teaching, arts and crafts stuff, something. I'd say it
was me, that you didn't care to live with me, and that's what made you so moody
and useless in a sense; but it wouldn't explain your unwillingness to paint,
would it? -- You who just sort of sit around claiming that you are an artist
all hours. I guess you can sell some of that stuff -- what little you do so I
guess somebody likes it. It is a shame that you don't draw more still life.
Your artsiness was really beginning to have something in it." He stopped for he
knew that he had run over her with maximum efficacy since gratuitous plowing
through flesh and blood would not make it any more contrite.
Knowing how a hurt, rejected, and emasculated ego sought to maim others in
speech, wisps of air, like a diffident eunuch brandishing a butcher knife, she
let him disgorge his acrimonious sound. What was it to her? It was an amusing
psychological study and only this. The petty utterances he would try to use to
inflict misery commensurate with a rejected proposal intrigued her. He was no
more dangerous than a child running around in an Indian costume and brandishing
his rubber blade.
"Go on. No need to be bashful. We can't work on problems if we are ignorant of
them." She meant "Go on. No need to be civil, you hateful bastard." But this
would be repressed to a dream and there it would be in the flames of enactment
and reenactment until the combustion was complete.
He continued. "Anyhow, you just looked bored all the time toward everyone
including your own son. We were your headaches; and I looked like I was wasting
my time with you."
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