Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing AmericaSills, Steven David Justin
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Tokyo to Tijuana: Gabriele Departing America
Sills, Steven David Justin
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Gabriele was now lying on the floor with her forehead bleeding profusely. Still
she could eke out faint utterances and so she projected her words like a song.
"You wouldn't have loved me if I hadn't been somebody-- you thought it was a
thrill to see one of whoredom reach stardom. It was like being in the
Astrodome. Like any carnal male, a woman's glitter is to your liking--it is
your pleasure dome but to me it is not striking."
Then she dreamed that there was an anniversary party, which Michael held to
commemorate himself and the longevity of his schools and stores. There, in her
home on the day of the party, she noticed that blonde-headed, frosty-pigmented
man with the unmemorable name sitting there in his own separate space within
her living room. He had large, thoughtful, eyes; and to her he was exotic and
unpretentiously wholesome like latent mushrooms in a vast field. He was silent
in the noise; and she loved this superhuman trait as she had loved it of her
father--he who used to part from her on the beach and pursue the silent wading
of his nothingness into the vastness of the entity, he who had been her
Parmenides despite having long ago abandoned her as one who had indifferently
tossed out grass seed. Having fought in war and having foolishly devoted his
life to contrived ideals of patriotism, these life scatterings nonetheless made
her father into the pensive German that he was. She had silently abhorred him
all these years for his neglect and for severing her innocence in the coerced
witnessing of the Turk's execution; and yet everyday she was grateful to him.
Not only had her time in Turkey made her a snug albeit hurting occupant of
self- containment within Fort Gabriele but his hard high browed arrogance had
inspired the high stain glass windows of her facade from which she observed all
earthly creatures below. Also it was from him that these sanguine
characteristics had been hers. As she looked over the guests to that serene bit
of nature within the smoke and voices, she saw eccentric greatness within him.
She knew that his philosophy was hers: for those individuals who could accept
silence and not cling to others they would never be lost from themselves; and
that whoever gained the bliss that was there in solitude, descending within
one's own fathoms without inordinate hungers and movement, he or she would be
one of the savants who moved perception. An insect moving on an ambulatory man
in ignorance of his movements; a moving universe that does not jolt the
self-centered movement of its ignorant beings--so the savants seemed not to
move while they carried all these insectual entities with them.
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