Poor fellow! it was no pleasant walking ground for him. Is it
worth our while to follow him up and down in his tramp? We have
most of us walked the like marches at one time or another of our
lives. The memory of them is by no means one which we can dwell
on with pleasure. Times they were of blinding and driving storm,
and howling winds, out of which voices as of evil spirits spoke
close in our ears--tauntingly, temptingly, whispering to the
mischievous wild beast which lurks in the bottom of all our
hearts, now, "Rouse up! art thou a man and darest not do this
thing?" now, "Rise, kill and eat--it is thine, wilt thou not take
it? Shall the flimsy scruples of this teacher, or the sanctified
cant of that, bar thy way, and balk thee of thine own? Thou hast
strength to brave them--to brave all things in earth, or heaven,
or hell; put out thy strength and be a man!"
Then did not the wild beast within us shake itself, and feel its
power, sweeping away all the "Thou shalt not's" which the law
wrote up before us in letters of fire, with the "_I will_" of
hardy, godless, self-assertion? And all the while--which alone
made the storm really dreadful to us--was there not the still
small voice--never to be altogether silenced by the roarings of
the tempest of passion, by the evil voices, by our own violent
attempts to stifle it--the still small voice appealing to the
man, the true man, within us, which is made in the image of
God--calling on him to assert his dominion over the wild
beast--to obey, and conquer, and live? Ay! and though we may have
followed the other voices, have we not, while following them,
confessed in our hearts, that all true strength, and nobleness,
and manliness, was to be found in the other path? Do I say that
most of us have had to tread this path, and fight this battle?
Surely I might have said all of us; all, at least, who have
passed the bright days of their boyhood. The clear and keen
intellect no less than the dull and heavy; the weak, the cold,
the nervous, no less than the strong and passionate of body. The
arms and the field have been divers; can have been the same, I
suppose, to no two men, but the battle must have been the same to
all. One here and there may have had a foretaste of it as a boy;
but it is the young man's battle, and not the boy's, thank God
for it! That most hateful and fearful of all realities, call it
by what name we will--self, the natural man, the old Adam--must
have risen up before each of us in early manhood, if not sooner,
challenging the true man within us to which the Spirit of God is
speaking, to a struggle for life or death.
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