After we had been out about a year we were sent to cruise off
Malta, on the look-out for the French fleet. It was a long
business, and the post wasn't so good then as it is now. We were
sometimes for months without getting a letter, and knew nothing
of what was happening at home, or anywhere else. We had a sick
time too on board, and at last he got a fever. He bore up against
it like a man, and wouldn't knock off duty for a long time. He
was midshipman of my watch; so I used to make him turn in early,
and tried to ease things to him as much as I could; but he didn't
pick up, and I began to get very anxious about him. I talked to
the doctor, and turned matters over in my own mind, and at last I
came to think he wouldn't get any better unless he could sleep
out of the cockpit. So one night, the 20th of October it was--I
remember it well enough, better than I remember any day since; it
was a dirty night, blowing half a gale of wind from the
southward, and we were under close-reefed top-sails--I had the
first watch, and at nine o'clock I sent him down to my cabin to
sleep there, where he would be fresher and quieter, and I was to
turn into his hammock when my watch was over.
I was on deck three hours or so after he went down, and the
weather got dirtier and dirtier, and the scud drove by, and the
wind sang and hummed through the rigging--it made me melancholy
to listen to it. I could think of nothing but the youngster down
below, and what I should say to his poor old uncle if anything
happened. Well, soon after midnight I went down and turned into
his hammock. I didn't go to sleep at once, for I remember very
well listening to the creaking of the ship's timbers as she rose
to the swell, and watching the lamp, which was slung from the
ceiling, and gave light enough to make out the other hammocks
swinging slowly altogether. At last, however, I dropped off, and
I reckon I must have been asleep about an hour, when I woke with
a start. For the first moment I didn't see anything but the
swinging hammocks and the lamp; but then suddenly I became aware
that some one was standing by my hammock, and I saw the figure as
plainly as I see any one of you now, for the foot of the hammock
was close to the lamp, and the light struck full across on the
head and shoulders, which was all that I could see of him. There
he was, the old Commodore; his grizzled hair coming out from
under a red woolen nightcap, and his shoulders wrapped in an old
thread-bare blue dressing-gown which I had often seen him in. His
face looked pale and drawn, and there was a wistful disappointed
look about the eyes. I was so taken aback I could not speak, but
lay watching him. He looked full at my face once or twice, but
didn't seem to recognise me; and, just as I was getting back my
tongue and going to speak, he said slowly: "Where's Tom? this is
his hammock. I can't see Tom;" and then he looked vaguely about
and passed away somehow, but how, I couldn't see. In a moment or
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