Tom Watson's Magazine, Vol. I, No. 2, April 1905Various
Religion
Tom Watson's Magazine, Vol. I, No. 2, April 1905
Various
United States -- Politics and government -- Periodicals
Forgive me—think kindly of me if you can, for—God help
me—I am going away, never to look on your face again.
I was a boy of twenty when I committed the sin against
God and man that has made my life a thing of horror. For
years I have sought for peace; adventure, work, wealth,
philanthropy—each alike has failed to bring it. I am going
now to my boyhood’s home to receive my just punishment.
Ah, Ethel, Ethel, my lost love—what can I say to you? I
have but words—words—empty words! I can see the horror in
your dear eyes. I am not worthy of even the thought of you,
and yet, my darling, oh, my darling, were it not for this
dread shadow on my life, I swear I would win you for my
darling in very truth!
But now—God help me—farewell!
There was no name signed, but this Ethel did not notice until she had
read the note three times with her tear-dimmed eyes; then she whispered:
“Poor fellow! He could not sign ‘Westbrook’ and he would not sign—the
other.”
Much to John Barrington’s amazement, his daughter insisted upon going to
town on the noon train that day. In response to his persistent objections
she assured him that she felt “perfectly well and quite equal to a
journey around the world, if necessary.”
At four o’clock Lawyer Martin was surprised by an urgent note summoning
him to the Barringtons’ Dalton residence on Howard Avenue. Half an hour
afterward he was ushered into the presence of Miss Barrington herself.
The interview was short, sharp and straight to the point. A few hours
later Miss Barrington and her maid boarded the eight o’clock express for
the East.
XIX
Twenty-four hours passed after Westbrook had sent his letter to Miss
Barrington before he could so arrange his affairs as to start for the
little New England village of his boyhood. All day and all night he had
worked with feverish haste, and the time had flown on wings of the wind;
now, when he was at last on the morning “Limited,” the hours seemed to
drag as though weighted with lead.
He could see it all—the proud new name he had made for himself
dragged low in the dust. He knew just how society would wonder and
surmise; just how the maneuvering mamas would shake their skirts in
virtuous indignation and how the doting papas would nod their heads in
congratulation over a miraculous escape.
He knew how the poor and friendless in the great city would first deny
the charge, then weep over the truth. He knew, too, the look that would
come to the faces of the miners, and he winced at even the thought of
this—Hustler Joe had prized his place in the hearts of his miner friends.
There was one on whom he dared not let his thoughts rest for a moment;
yet it was that one’s face which seemed ever before his eyes, and it was
that one’s voice which constantly rang in his ears.
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