Tom Watson's Magazine, Vol. I, No. 4, June 1905Various
General
Tom Watson's Magazine, Vol. I, No. 4, June 1905
Various
United States -- Politics and government -- Periodicals
“She is indeed a queen, a priceless woman,” murmured Fair quietly, “but
her children are not my children—she never became my wife. She has been
a sacred vocation to me, and while men envied me the love of such a
wife, I was really living the life of a celibate because of a mad, but
inexorable, fixed idea. You fail to understand this? So do I. I only know
that nothing in heaven or earth could have deterred me from assuming
the position in which I have lived so long. This may be madness—but it
is of the very essence of my being. And then I came to love another
woman—and you may imagine what I suffered. But there was a satisfaction
in it all which, of course, you men will be unable to comprehend. But,
see the irony of fate. The only thing that made life possible has been
dashed away from me. I lived supported by the thought that Janet and her
children were saved from shame by my effacement, and now I must proclaim
that they are not my flesh and blood, to shield them from the disgrace of
being thought a murderer’s kin. Isn’t it horrible? But it is only fate’s
swift way of damning me for what I had just been so weak as to decide to
do. I was about to let my love—the gnawing hunger of a real life—have
way. I had decided, on this very day, to proclaim my love for— Fellows,
for God’s sake, never go back upon your destiny even if, as in my case,
it should mean lifelong torture. After all, there may not be a hell after
death, for there’s one on this side of the grave—and I am in it.”
He dropped his head on the edge of the table. Allyne, whose heart was
like a child’s, could bear the sight of his agony no longer, and walked
to the end of the room. Travers came over to Fair’s side and laid his
hand on his head.
“This is the most stupendous thing I ever heard of, Fair,” he said; “and
if there is such a thing as justice, you shall not suffer.”
“There is a thing called justice,” replied Fair, looking up, “and
therefore I must die.”
“Not if you will allow us to save you from yourself,” cried Allyne,
returning to them. “My soul, man, no case can be made out against you
unless you make it yourself. Do let us act for you. Counsel must be
secured at once. Come, come, I know the very man.”
“Presently, presently,” answered Fair. “I telegraphed Marshall, my
solicitor, that we would call at his chambers tonight at ten. But before
we go I want you two to have the case in detail. I promise to be governed
by you and Marshall when you have all the facts. That’s reasonable.”
“Then there will be no difficulty, I promise you,” replied Allyne, with
renewed good spirits. “Marshall has no romantic rubbish in his gray
matter. Maxwell, you’re a disembodied ghost of some crusader who hasn’t
heard that Adam and Eve left Paradise some time ago for good. I drink to
you, Sir Altruist.”
“Thanks, old chap,” said Fair, with moistening eyes.
“By Jove, I feel better,” exclaimed Travers, stretching his arms and
holding Fair by both shoulders. “I’d like to be worthy of you, Fair.”
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