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When I look back now at my Wimblehurst days, I still find myself
surprised at the amount of steady grinding study, of strenuous
self-discipline that I maintained throughout my apprenticeship. In many
ways I think that time was the most honourable period in my life. I
wish I could say with a certain mind that my motives in working so well
were large and honourable too. To a certain extent they were so; there
was a fine sincere curiosity, a desire for the strength and power of
scientific knowledge and a passion for intellectual exercise; but I do
not think those forces alone would have kept me at it so grimly and
closely if Wimblehurst had not been so dull, so limited and so
observant. Directly I came into the London atmosphere, tasting freedom,
tasting irresponsibility and the pull of new forces altogether, my
discipline fell from me like a garment. Wimblehurst to a youngster in
my position offered no temptations worth counting, no interests to
conflict with study, no vices—such vices as it offered were coarsely
stripped of any imaginative glamourfull drunkenness, clumsy leering
shameful lust, no social intercourse even to waste one’s time, and on
the other hand it would minister greatly to the self-esteem of a
conspicuously industrious student. One was marked as “clever,” one
played up to the part, and one’s little accomplishment stood out finely
in one’s private reckoning against the sunlit small ignorance of that
agreeable place. One went with an intent rush across the market square,
one took one’s exercise with as dramatic a sense of an ordered day as
an Oxford don, one burnt the midnight oil quite consciously at the rare
respectful, benighted passer-by. And one stood out finely in the local
paper with one’s unapproachable yearly harvest of certificates. Thus I
was not only a genuinely keen student, but also a little of a prig and
poseur in those days—and the latter kept the former at it, as London
made clear.
Moreover Wimblehurst had given me no outlet in any other direction.
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