Armed Forces -- Fiction; English poetry; Prisoners -- Fiction; Short stories, English
For an instant, that was half an eternity, the shop spun before me in a
rainbow-tinted whirl, in and through which my own soul most
dispassionately considered my own soul as that fought with an
over-mastering fear. Then I smelt the strong smell of cigarettes from
Mr. Shaynor’s clothing, and heard, as though it had been the rending of
trumpets, the rattle of his breathing. I was still in my place of
observation, much as one would watch a rifle-shot at the butts,
half-bent, hands on my knees, and head within a few inches of the
black, red, and yellow blanket of his shoulder. I was whispering
encouragement, evidently to my other self, sounding sentences, such as
men pronounce in dreams.
“If he has read Keats, it proves nothing. If he hasn’t—like causes
_must_ beget like effects. There is no escape from this law. _You_
ought to be grateful that you know ‘St. Agnes Eve’ without the book;
because, given the circumstances, such as Fanny Brand, who is the key
of the enigma, and approximately represents the latitude and longitude
of Fanny Brawne; allowing also for the bright red colour of the
arterial blood upon the handkerchief, which was just what you were
puzzling over in the shop just now; and counting the effect of the
professional environment, here almost perfectly duplicated—the result
is logical and inevitable. As inevitable as induction.”
Still, the other half of my soul refused to be comforted. It was
cowering in some minute and inadequate corner—at an immense distance.
Hereafter, I found myself one person again, my hands still gripping my
knees, and my eyes glued on the page before Mr. Shaynor. As dreamers
accept and explain the upheaval of landscapes and the resurrection of
the dead, with excerpts from the evening hymn or the
multiplication-table, so I had accepted the facts, whatever they might
be, that I should witness, and had devised a theory, sane and plausible
to my mind, that explained them all. Nay, I was even in advance of my
facts, walking hurriedly before them, assured that they would fit my
theory. And all that I now recall of that epoch-making theory are the
lofty words: “If he has read Keats it’s the chloric-ether. If he
hasn’t, it’s the identical bacillus, or Hertzian wave of tuberculosis,
_plus_ Fanny Brand and the professional status which, in conjunction
with the main-stream of subconscious thought common to all mankind, has
thrown up temporarily an induced Keats.”
Mr. Shaynor returned to his work, erasing and rewriting as before with
swiftness. Two or three blank pages he tossed aside. Then he wrote,
muttering:
The little smoke of a candle that goes out.
“No,” he muttered. “Little smoke—little smoke—little smoke. What else?”
He thrust his chin forward toward the advertisement, whereunder the
last of the Blaudett’s Cathedral pastilles fumed in its holder. “Ah!”
Then with relief:—
The little smoke that dies in moonlight cold.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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