Trimblerigg : $b A book of revelationHousman, Laurence
Religion
Trimblerigg : $b A book of revelation
Housman, Laurence
Clergy -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Satire
Once more he brushed his hair for experiment. The lemon-coloured flame
did not deflect or waver from its outward symmetry; nor did his head
experience any electric thrills, as though virtue were passing either
into him or out of him. With a slight sense of disappointment he laid
his brushes down, and put on his coat. This, he found on consulting
the glass, had made no change, except that upon the black cloth fell a
slight radiance; but when for further experiment he once more switched
on the light, it almost disappeared; and against the window, looking
back at himself in the hand-mirror, for a moment he persuaded himself
that it had gone. But if an involuntary wish had fathered that thought,
he had only to move away from the light for its form and colour to
reappear as strongly as ever; and as it responded with unvarying
consistency to all the experiments he played on it, so did his sense of
its reality become a conviction. It was not merely an idea, it was a
fact.
And then the feeble tinkle of a bell below told him of breakfast. He
went out on to the landing and peeped over the banisters.
Hearing dilatory sounds among the breakfast things, ‘Mrs. James,’ he
called, ‘you needn’t wait.’ And a minute later, on hearing her descend
to the basement, he came downstairs at a run.
At table, in case Mrs. James should find excuse to return, he took his
wife’s place instead of his own, sitting with his back to the window;
and found, in that position, though the morning was still dark, that he
could see into his egg quite easily. Thus, even while away from his
mirror, the sense of something real, not imaginary, remained with him.
But it gave him no joy; for though in himself he felt at unity with
this day-spring from on high that had visited him, he was doubtful how
it would appear to the outside world--whether the world was ripe for
it--whether, indeed, it was intended for the outside world at all. It
was already in his mind that if he entered his Mission Centre office
by the ordinary way, he would have to run the gauntlet of a roomful of
clerks; and that his unexplained accompaniment might provoke comment,
possibly even mirth. And Mr. Trimblerigg, even with reason on his side,
was not one who liked to be laughed at.
Unable to make up his mind what he felt about it himself, now, as he
considered the matter from the worldly point of view, he began to
regard it with less and less favour. He could not but feel that for
such a manifestation as this the world needed preparation; a publicity
campaign should have gone first and some more obvious occasion should
have been found for its first appearance--this, in all humility--than
one so merely personal to himself, a testimonial to the integrity of
his character.
And then--to give the first test to his doubts--came the interrogative
Mrs. James, merely wishing to know what meals he would be in for, and
whether, if callers came to inquire for him, he would name any time
when he should be at home.
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