True Manliness: From the Writings of Thomas HughesHughes, Thomas
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True Manliness: From the Writings of Thomas Hughes
Hughes, Thomas
Conduct of life
For, although not an extravagant man, many of the pursuits in which he
had eclipsed all rivals were far beyond the means of any but a rich
one, and Blake was not rich. He had a fair allowance, but by the end
of his first year was considerably in debt, and, at the time we are
speaking of, the whole pack of Oxford tradesmen, into whose books he
had got (having smelt out the leanness of his expectations), were upon
him, besieging him for payment. This miserable and constant annoyance
was wearing his soul out. This was the reason why his oak was sported,
and he was never seen till the afternoons, and turned night into day.
He was too proud to come to an understanding with his persecutors, even
had it been possible; and now, at his sorest need, his whole scheme
of life was failing him; his love of success was turning into ashes
in his mouth; he felt much more disgust than pleasure at his triumphs
over other men, and yet the habit of striving for such successes,
notwithstanding its irksomeness, was too strong to be resisted.
Poor Blake! he was living on from hand to mouth, flashing out with all
his old brilliancy and power, and forcing himself to take the lead in
whatever company he might be; but utterly lonely and depressed when by
himself—reading feverishly in secret, in a desperate effort to retrieve
all by high honors and a fellowship. As Tom said to his neighbors,
there was no sadder face than his to be seen in Oxford.
CV.
One of the moralists whom we sat under in my youth—was it the great
Richard Swiveller, or Mr. Stiggins?—says: “We are born in a vale,
and must take the consequences of being found in such a situation.”
These consequences, I for one am ready to encounter. I pity people who
weren’t found in a vale. I don’t mean a flat country, but a vale; that
is a flat country bounded by hills. The having your hill _always_ in
view if you choose to turn towards him, that’s the essence of a vale.
There he is for ever in the distance, your friend and companion; you
never lose him as you do in hilly districts.
CVI.
All dwellers in and about London are, alas, too well acquainted with
that never-to-be-enough-hated change which we have to undergo once, at
least, in every spring. As each succeeding winter wears away, the same
thing happens to us.
For some time we do not trust the fair lengthening days, and cannot
believe that the dirty pair of sparrows who live opposite our window
are really making love and going to build, notwithstanding all their
twittering. But morning after morning rises fresh and gentle; there is
no longer any vice in the air; we drop our overcoats; we rejoice in the
green shoots which the privet-hedge is making in the square garden, and
hail the returning tender-pointed leaves of the plane-trees as friends;
we go out of our way to walk through Covent Garden Market to see the
ever-brightening show of flowers from the happy country.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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