Rose agreed with him, and was vastly interested in the whole affair.
She dwelt on it, recurred to the different points and stages,
discussed, analysed, and combed out every detail separately to its
greatest length. It gratified Joseph that she should concern herself
so warmly in his family affairs, but he would have been glad if her
interest had been sooner satisfied. She contrived that the
conversation should not progress, as it naturally would have done,
from Margaret's love-passages to their own. Even the night on
Fessenden's Island was not able, as Joseph had felt confident that it
would be, to withdraw her thoughts from the runaways to their own
tender affairs. When he endeavoured to transfer the interest, she
returned with renewed curiosity to ask where Margaret and Blount first
met, and from that digressed still further, to demand full particulars
of his circumstances, birth, and parentage. She was as charmingly
companionable as she always had been; Joseph loved and adored as he
always did; but he could not draw her on to the closer and more
personal topic on which he yearned to hold converse.
That topic--their engagement--was one to which this afternoon she had
an insuperable, and, as she told herself, an unreasonable repugnance
to reopen at the present moment. Come it must, eventually, and she
would welcome it; but not to-day. A shadow was upon her, the shadow of
Bertie Roe, an influence to which she was resolved that she would not
yield, but which yet had power to cast an unattractiveness and dimness
over all beside. She had broken with that man for ever, had she not?
but she had spoken with him, in dismissing him, and the converse of
all the world beside had lost its relish. She felt, but would not own
it. Had she not announced openly her new engagement? and was she, like
some poor-spirited slave, to break it off and go back, because her old
tyrant had chosen to lift his finger? What would her friends, the
world, the free-thinking and strong-minded who had applauded her
spirit, say to see her go back to bondage and resume her chains? She
chafed to think of it, and tried to lash herself into new anger
against her husband. And she had felt so strong in her resolve, all
through the bygone week! To think that a few words, and a little
pleading, should have weakened her like this! She was growing unworthy
of her former self. How dim and indistinct her wrongs had grown since
yesterday, when that sweet insidious voice had taken on itself to
explain them away! Why had she listened?... And until yesterday, the
sight of the woman he was always walking with had made her strong; but
that crouching figure under the tree, seen yesterday, who could fear
that? How feel jealous of aught so forlorn? There was a little triumph
in it, that Bertie should have been brought so low; but she missed the
tonic and strengthening influence which had been thus dispelled. She
was resolved to resist, to have done with Bertie Roe; but there was a
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