The six guardians took their trouble hard. Apart from the emotions
that had been precipitated by her developing charms, they loved her
dearly as the child they had taken to their hearts and bestowed all
their young enthusiasm and energy and tenderness upon. She was the
living clay, as Gertrude had said so many years before, that they had
molded as nearly as possible to their hearts' desire. They loved her
for herself, but one and all they loved her for what they had made of
her--an exquisite, lovely young creature, at ease in a world that
might so easily have crushed her utterly if they had not intervened
for her.
They kept up the search unremittingly, following false leads and
meeting with heartbreaking discouragements and disappointments. Only
Margaret had any sense of peace about her.
"I'm sure she's all right," she said; "I feel it. It's hard having her
gone, but I'm not afraid for her. She'll work it out better than we
could help her to. It's a beautiful thing to be young and strong and
free, and she'll get the beauty out of it."
"I think perhaps you're right, Margaret," David said. "You almost
always are. It's the bread and butter end of the problem that worries
me."
Margaret smiled at him quaintly.
"The Lord provides," she said. "He'll provide for our ewe lamb, I'm
sure."
"You speak as if you had it on direct authority."
"I think perhaps I have," she said gravely.
Jimmie and Gertrude grew closer together as the weeks passed, and the
strain of their fruitless quest continued. One day Jimmie showed her
the letter that Eleanor had written him.
"Sweet, isn't she?" he said, as Gertrude returned it to him, smiling
through her tears.
"She's a darling," Gertrude said fervently. "Did she hurt you so much,
Jimmie dear?"
"I wanted her," Jimmie answered slowly, "but I think it was because I
thought she was mine,--that I could make her mine. When I found she
was Peter's,--had been Peter's all the time, the thought somehow cured
me. She was dead right, you know. I made it up out of the stuff that
dreams are made of. God knows I love her, but--but that personal thing
has gone out of it. She's my little lost child,--or my sister. A man
wants his own to be his own, Gertrude."
"Yes, I know."
"My--my real trouble is that I'm at sea again. I thought that I
cared,--that I was anchored for good. It's the drifting that plays the
deuce with me. If the thought of that sweet child and the grief at her
loss can't hold me, what can? What hope is there for me?"
"I don't know," Gertrude laughed.
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