But one thing and another interfered. I went South. One day six months
later, after I had returned, he called up once more, saying he wished to
see me. Of course I asked him down and he came and spoke of his health.
Some doctor, an old college pal of his, was assuring him that he had
Bright's disease and that he might die at any time. He wanted to know,
in case anything happened to him, would I look after his many mss., most
of which, the most serious efforts at least, had never been published. I
agreed. Then he went away and I never saw him again. A year later I was
one day informed that he had died three days before of kidney trouble.
He had been West to see a moving-picture director; on his way East he
had been taken ill and had stopped off with friends somewhere to be
treated, or operated upon. A few weeks later he had returned to New
York, but refusing to rest and believing that he could not die, so soon,
had kept out of doors and in the city, until suddenly he did collapse.
Or, rather, he met his favorite doctor, an intellectual savage like
himself, who with some weird desire to appear forceful, definite,
unsentimental perhaps--a mental condition L---- most fancied--had told
him to go home and to bed, for he would be dead in forty-eight hours!--a
fine bit of assurance which perhaps as much as anything else assisted
L---- to die. At any rate and in spite of the ministrations of his wife,
who wished to defy the doctor and who in her hope for herself and her
children as well as him strove to contend against this gloom, he did so
go to bed and did die. On the last day, realizing no doubt how utterly
indifferent his life had been, how his main aspirations or great dreams
had been in the main nullified by passions, necessities, crass chance
(how well he was fitted to understand that!) he broke down and cried for
hours. Then he died.
A friend who had known much of this last period, said to me rather
satirically, "He was dealing with death in the shape of a medic. Have
you ever seen him?" The doctor, he meant. "He looks like an
advertisement for an undertaker. I do believe he was trying to discover
whether he could kill somebody by the power of suggestion, and he met
L---- in the nick of time. You know how really sensitive he was. Well,
that medic killed him, the same as you would kill a bird with a bullet.
He said 'You're already dead,' and he was."
And--oh yes--M----, his former patron. At the time of L----'s sickness
and death he was still owing him $1100 for services rendered during the
last days of that unfortunate magazine. He had never been called upon to
pay his debts, for he had sunk through one easy trapdoor of bankruptcy
only to rise out of another, smiling and with the means to continue.
Yes, he was rich again, rated A No. 1, the president of a great
corporation, and with L----'s $1100 still unpaid and now not legally
"collectible." His bank balance, established by a friend at the time,
was exactly one hundred thousand.
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