Ghosts -- Fiction; Invalids -- Fiction; Women authors -- Fiction
She slept well that night and wrote him again in the morning, the most
passionate love-letter of any of the series. Then she sent for Peter
Kennedy. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday had to be got through. And then
another week, and one other. And Safety, safety with Gabriel!
Peter came hot-foot like a starving animal. It was five days since he
had seen her, and he looked worn and cadaverous. She gave him an
intermittent pulse to count, told him she had had a sleepless night,
found herself restless, unnerved, told him no more. He was purely
professional at first, brusquely uneasy about her, blaming her for all
she had done and left undone, the tonic she had missed, the unrest to
which she admitted. After that they found little more to say to each
other, though Peter could not tear himself away.
She talked best to Peter through the piano, as he to her. Even in these
few weeks his playing had enormously improved. The whole man had
altered. She had had more and different effect upon him than would have
seemed possible at first. He had never been in love before, only known
vulgar intrigue, how to repel the glad-eye attentions of provincial
maidens to whom his size was an attraction, and his stupidity no
deterrent. This was something altogether different, and in a measure he
had grown to meet it, become more ambitious and less demonstrative,
perceptibly humbler. She knew he loved her but made light of it. He
filled up the hours until Gabriel would come again. That was all. But
less amusingly now that she had less difficulty in managing him. This
mutual attraction of music slurred over many weak places in their
intercourse.
Wednesday he sat through the afternoon, stayed on to dinner playing to
her and listening. Thursday he paid her a professional visit in the
morning, would have sounded her heart but that his stethoscope was
unsteady, and he heard his own heartbeats louder and more definitely
than hers. Thursday evening he ran up on his bicycle to see if she was
all right. There was more music, and for all his newly found
self-restraint a scene at parting, a scene that troubled her because she
could not hold herself guiltless in bringing it about, and Gabriel was
in her mind now to the exclusion of any other man. Gabriel had won
solidly that which at first was little more than an incitement, an
inclination.
Gabriel Stanton would not have made love to another man’s fiancée. His
standard was higher than her own, just as his scholarship was deeper and
more profound. She was proud that he loved her, simpler and more sincere
than she had ever been before.
Tonight, when Peter Kennedy broke down, and cried at her feet and told
her that his days were hell and all his nights sleepless, she was
ashamed and distressed, much more repelled than attracted. She told him
she would refuse to see him, that she would not have him at the house at
all if he could not learn to behave himself.
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