Domestic fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
Nona turned her head uneasily on the cushions. She felt incurably weary,
and unable to rebound to the spring radiance which usually set her blood
in motion. Her immobility had begun to wear on her. At first it had been
a relief to be quiescent, to be out of things, to be offered up as the
passive victim and the accepted evidence of the Cedarledge burglary. But
now she was sick to nausea of the part, and envious of the others who
could escape by flight--by perpetual evasion.
Not that she really wanted to be one of them; she was not sure that she
wanted to go away at all--at least in the body. Spiritual escape was
what she craved; but by what means, and whither? Perhaps it could best
be attained by staying just where she was, by sticking fast to her few
square feet of obligations and responsibilities. But even this idea made
no special appeal. Her obligations, her responsibilities--what were
they? Negative, at best, like everything else in her life. She had
thought that renunciation would mean freedom--would mean at least
escape. But today it seemed to mean only a closer self-imprisonment. She
was tired, no doubt...
There was a tap on the door, and her mother entered. Nona raised her
listless eyes curiously. She always looked at her mother with curiosity
now: curiosity not so much as to what had changed in her, but as to what
had remained the same. And it was extraordinary how Pauline, the old
Pauline, was coming to the surface again through the new one, the
haggard and stricken apparition of the Cedarledge midnight...
"My broken arm saved her," Nona thought, remembering, with a sort of
ironical admiration, how that dishevelled spectre had become Pauline
Manford again, in command of herself and the situation, as soon as she
could seize on its immediate, its practical, sides; could grasp those
handles of reality to which she always clung.
Now even that stern and disciplined figure had vanished, giving way, as
the days passed and reassurance grew, to the usual, the everyday
Pauline, smilingly confident in herself and in the general security of
things. Had that dreadful night at Cedarledge ever been a reality to
her? If it had, Nona was sure, it had already faded into the realms of
fable, since its one visible result had been her daughter's injury, and
that was on the way to healing. Everything else connected with it had
happened out of sight and under ground, and for that reason was now as
if it had never existed for Pauline, who was more than ever resolutely
two-dimensional.
Physically, at least, the only difference Nona could detect was that a
skilful make-up had filled in the lines which, in spite of all the arts
of the face-restorers, were weaving their permanent web about her
mother's lips and eyes. Under this delicate mask Pauline's face looked
younger and fresher than ever, and as smooth and empty as if she had
just been born again--"And she _has_, after all," Nona concluded.
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