Domestic fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
Destroying two lives to preserve her own ideal of purity! It was like
the horrible ailing old men in history books, who used to bathe in human
blood to restore their vitality. Every one agreed that there was nothing
such a clever sensitive fellow as Stanley Heuston mightn't have made of
his life if he'd married a different kind of woman. As it was, he had
just drifted: tried the law, dabbled in literary reviewing, taken a turn
at municipal politics, another at scientific farming, and dropped one
experiment after another to sink, at thirty-five, into a disillusioned
idler who killed time with cards and drink and motor-speeding. She
didn't believe he ever opened a book nowadays: he was living on the
dwindling capital of his early enthusiasms. But, as for what people
called his "fastness," she knew it was merely the inevitable opposition
to Aggie's virtues. And it wasn't as if there had been children. Nona
always ached for the bewildered progeny suddenly bundled from one home
to another when their parents embarked on a new conjugal experiment; she
could never have bought her happiness by a massacre of innocents. But to
be sacrificed to a sterile union--as sterile spiritually as
physically--to miss youth and love because of Agnes Heuston's notion of
her duty to the elderly clergyman she called God!
That woman he said he was going off with... Nona had pretended she
didn't know, had opened incredulous eyes at the announcement. But of
course she knew; everybody knew; it was Cleo Merrick. She had been
"after him" for the last two years, she hadn't a rag of reputation to
lose, and would jump at the idea of a few jolly weeks with a man like
Heuston, even if he got away from her afterward. But he wouldn't--of
course he never would! Poor Stan--Cleo Merrick's noise, her cheek, her
vulgarity: how warm and life-giving they would seem as a change from the
frigidarium he called home! She would hold him by her very cheapness:
her recklessness would seem like generosity, her glitter like heat.
Ah--how Nona could have shown him the difference! She shut her eyes and
felt his lips on her lids; and her lids became lips. Wherever he touched
her, a mouth blossomed... Did he know that? Had he never guessed?
She jumped out of bed, ran into her dressing-room, began to bathe and
dress with feverish haste. She wouldn't telephone him--Aggie had long
ears. She wouldn't send a "special delivery"--Aggie had sharp eyes. She
would just summon him by a telegram: a safe anonymous telegram. She
would dash out of the house and get it off herself, without even waiting
for her cup of coffee to be brought.
"Come and see me any time today. I was too stupid the other night." Yes;
he would understand that. She needn't even sign it...
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