For that is what the state of Jasper amounted to. He moved, acted,
weary-eyed, keen-faced, lank and restless, with brusque movements and
fierce gestures; he talked incessantly in a frenzied and fatigued voice,
but within himself he knew that nothing would ever give him back the
brig, just as nothing can heal a pierced heart. His soul, kept quiet in
the stress of love by the unflinching Freya’s influence, was like a still
but overwound string. The shock had started it vibrating, and the string
had snapped. He had waited for two years in a perfectly intoxicated
confidence for a day that now would never come to a man disarmed for life
by the loss of the brig, and, it seemed to him, made unfit for love to
which he had no foothold to offer.
Day after day he would traverse the length of the town, follow the coast,
and, reaching the point of land opposite that part of the reef on which
his brig lay stranded, look steadily across the water at her beloved
form, once the home of an exulting hope, and now, in her inclined,
desolated immobility, towering above the lonely sea-horizon, a symbol of
despair.
The crew had left her in due course in her own boats which directly they
reached the town were sequestrated by the harbour authorities. The
vessel, too, was sequestrated pending proceedings; but these same
authorities did not take the trouble to set a guard on board. For,
indeed, what could move her from there? Nothing, unless a miracle;
nothing, unless Jasper’s eyes, fastened on her tensely for hours
together, as though he hoped by the mere power of vision to draw her to
his breast.
All this story, read in my friend’s very chatty letter, dismayed me not a
little. But it was really appalling to read his relation of how Schultz,
the mate, went about everywhere affirming with desperate pertinacity that
it was he alone who had sold the rifles. “I stole them,” he protested.
Of course, no one would believe him. My friend himself did not believe
him, though he, of course, admired this self-sacrifice. But a good many
people thought it was going too far to make oneself out a thief for the
sake of a friend. Only, it was such an obvious lie, too, that it did not
matter, perhaps.
I, who, in view of Schultz’s psychology, knew how true that must be,
admit that I was appalled. So this was how a perfidious destiny took
advantage of a generous impulse! And I felt as though I were an
accomplice in this perfidy, since I did to a certain extent encourage
Jasper. Yet I had warned him as well.
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