Sooner or later they would meet. She had known that always, but had
never dreamt of it being so soon, or so strangely.
Somehow in life the meetings we expect never do take place as we
expect them. We may rehearse our little scenes as carefully as we
please, we may arrange our looks, our words, the very tones of our
voices, but when the actual _rencontre_ does occur it is sure to be
utterly different, and the carefully-arranged programme is never
carried out.
It is so with Lauraine now. She has sometimes longed, sometimes
dreaded to meet him, but always imagined it at some distant time and
in some totally different manner; and now Keith is sitting at her
table, her own guest, smiling, talking, looking at her to all
appearance as unconcerned and forgetful as if that "garden scene" had
never been enacted.
He is a better actor than herself, and he determines to be it. She
shows that she is troubled, pained, perplexed. He ignores everything
that might lead to that past, is careless, cynical, indifferent as of
yore; but all the time his heart is beating with tumultuous pain; he
is thinking how sadly altered she is, how changed from the bright,
beautiful Lauraine of his boyhood, and yet dearer to him in her
sufferings and sorrow than in any years that are past. It is hard
work to keep down the thoughts that are thronging, the love that is
leaping, the joy that is thrilling his every sense; but he knows it
must be done, and he succeeds in doing it and in deceiving Lauraine.
The cloth is removed. The soft dusk settles on the pretty quiet
scene without. Lady Etwynde, who dislikes a glare of light, blows
out nearly all the illumination of candles in the room, and they sit
there by the window watching the stars come out one by one, talking
less now, but with something grave and earnest in the talk that it
has lacked before.
At last Lady Etwynde rises, and, saying she has letters to write,
moves away to a little inner room, partitioned off by curtains from
the one where they have all been sitting. It is solitude, yet not
solitude. The sense of being together, the knowledge that their low
tones are unheard, is just restrained by the feeling that another
person is close at hand. Keith is silent for some moments, then
bends towards Lauraine.
"You never answered my letters; I could hardly expect it. But I do
hope you believe I felt for your grief?"
"Yes," she answers, simply; "I always felt sure of that."
"I am glad you say so. When you never wrote I thought you were
offended, indifferent, perhaps. It has been a terribly blank time
for me."
"I think you have no right to tell me that," she says, flushing and
paling with nervous agitation. "I cannot help you, and it only adds
to the sufferings of my own life that yours is also sad."
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