Two Voyages to New South Wales and Van Diemen's LandReid, Thomas
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Two Voyages to New South Wales and Van Diemen's Land
Reid, Thomas
Exiles -- Australia -- New South Wales; Exiles -- Australia -- Tasmania
tenement.” Then grasping my hand, he faintly exclaimed, “Ah, my friend!
virtue is its own reward. See the effect of a religious life, and the
blessed composure of a dying Christian:” he continued, “My lamp is
nearly out; but, blessed be God, I feel that it has not burned in vain,
O Lord God! excuse my impatience, I am ready to obey thy call, and
anxious to receive thy promised rest.” Here his voice failed,—his tongue
faltered,—and his spirit took its flight to the bosom of its Father in
heaven.
The picture of my other unhappy friend was just the reverse of the
above. He had indulged freely in all the fashionable gaieties of the
world; and if ever a serious or useful thought obtruded on his
disordered fancy, it was immediately stifled by some idle debauchery. In
this mad career he quaffed away life to the dregs, and, before he
arrived at the meridian of manhood, he was verging fast to the brink of
eternity. A bacchanalian surfeit in a distant country brought on a
fever, which threatened a speedy dissolution of life; and in this state
I saw him for the first time for several years, and I am certain I shall
never forget the painful feelings I endured throughout this melancholy
interview. It is absolutely impossible to give even a faint idea of the
horror, the agony, the heart-rending terror that harrowed up his soul,
whenever the thought of death flashed across his mind. He received me
with phrensied ardour, in which hope and fear were strongly depicted.
“Alas!” he exclaimed, “you have come too late, for I am lost—_every way
lost_.” I immediately perceived that life was ebbing fast; and being
convinced that nothing short of divine interposition could retard his
fate, I endeavoured to console him by drawing his attention to the
mercies of God, and the saving mediation of a gracious Redeemer: to
which he replied, with asperity and violence, “If you have any
friendship left for a degraded, self-polluted wretch, torture not his
last moments. My life has been spent in iniquity—foolishly spent,
because it never yielded one hour of solid happiness. I have lived
without thinking of God, and why should he _now_ think of me, unless it
be to judge me—to damn me?—Oh, God!—I shall go distracted!” A fainting
fit intervened, and fortunately broke this mournful chain of reflection;
but, alas! sensibility too soon returned, and with it fresh trains of
gloomy despondency. He stared wildly, and roared out, “I have broken
from him—but he is coming again—there—there—death!—Oh! save me—save me.”
After nearly an hour passed in this dreadful state, he again became
capable of reflecting; but every moment added to his dejection. “I have
been so bad,” he exclaimed, “that God can never forgive me. I have
blasphemed and dishonoured his holy name a hundred times, when my heart
inwardly smote me. I have ridiculed and denied his existence, that my
companions in error might think well of me; but I never was sincere in
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