Out of _him_—you’ll admit my source is unimpeachable. Edward Marston,
the great K.C., and the author of an admirable work on “The Logic of
Evidence.” You should have read the chapters on “What Evidence Is and
What It Is Not.” You may say he lied; but if you knew Marston you’d know
he wouldn’t lie, for the simple reason that he’s incapable of inventing
anything. So that, if you ask me whether I believe this tale, all I can
say is, I believe the things happened, because he said they happened and
because they happened to him. As for what they _were_—well, I don’t
pretend to explain it, neither would he.
You know he was married twice. He adored his first wife, Rosamund, and
Rosamund adored him. I suppose they were completely happy. She was
fifteen years younger than he, and beautiful. I wish I could make you
see how beautiful. Her eyes and mouth had the same sort of bow, full and
wide-sweeping, and they stared out of her face with the same grave,
contemplative innocence. Her mouth was finished off at each corner with
the loveliest little moulding, rounded like the pistil of a flower. She
wore her hair in a solid gold fringe over her forehead, like a child’s,
and a big coil at the back. When it was let down it hung in a heavy
cable to her waist. Marston used to tease her about it. She had a trick
of tossing back the rope in the night when it was hot under her, and it
would fall smack across his face and hurt him.
There was a pathos about her that I can’t describe—a curious, pure,
sweet beauty, like a child’s; perfect, and perfectly immature; so
immature that you couldn’t conceive its lasting—like that—any more than
childhood lasts. Marston used to say it made him nervous. He was afraid
of waking up in the morning and finding that it had changed in the
night. And her beauty was so much a part of herself that you couldn’t
think of her without it. Somehow you felt that if it went she must go
too.
Well, she went first.
For a year afterwards Marston existed dangerously, always on the edge of
a break-down. If he didn’t go over altogether it was because his work
saved him. He had no consoling theories. He was one of those bigoted
materialists of the nineteenth century type who believe that
consciousness is a purely physiological function, and that when your
body’s dead, _you’re_ dead. He saw no reason to suppose the contrary.
“When you consider,” he used to say, “the nature of the evidence!”
It’s as well to bear this in mind, so as to realize that he hadn’t any
bias or anticipation. Rosamund survived for him only in his memory. And
in his memory he was still in love with her. At the same time he used to
discuss quite cynically the chances of his marrying again.
It seems that in their honeymoon they had gone into that. Rosamund said
she hated to think of his being lonely and miserable, supposing she died
before he did. She would like him to marry again. If, she stipulated, he
married the right woman.
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