That night I saw my uncle. I pitied him, though I feared him. I was longing
to tell him how anxious I was to help him, if only he could point out the
way. It was in substance what I had already said, but now strongly urged.
He brightened; he sat up perpendicularly in his chair with a countenance,
not weak or fatuous now, but resolute and searching, and which contracted
into dark thought or calculation as I talked.
I dare say I spoke confusedly enough. I was always nervous in his presence;
there was, I fancy, something mesmeric in the odd sort of influence which,
without effort, he exercised over my imagination.
Sometimes this grew into a dismal panic, and Uncle Silas--polished,
mild--seemed unaccountably horrible to me. Then it was no longer an
accidental fascination of electro-biology. It was something more. His
nature was incomprehensible by me. He was without the nobleness, without
the freshness, without the softness, without the frivolities of such human
nature as I had experienced, either within myself or in other persons. I
instinctively felt that appeals to sympathies or feelings could no
more affect him than a marble monument. He seemed to accommodate his
conversation to the moral structure of others, just as spirits are said to
assume the shape of mortals. There were the sensualities of the gourmet for
his body, and there ended his human nature, as it seemed to me. Through
that semi-transparent structure I thought I could now and then discern the
light or the glare of his inner life. But I understood it not.
He never scoffed at what was good or noble--his hardest critic could not
nail him to one such sentence; and yet, it seemed somehow to me that his
unknown nature was a systematic blasphemy against it all. If fiend he was,
he was yet something higher than the garrulous, and withal feeble, demon of
Goethe. He assumed the limbs and features of our mortal nature. He shrouded
his own, and was a profoundly reticent Mephistopheles. Gentle he had been
to me--kindly he had nearly always spoken; but it seemed like the mild talk
of one of those goblins of the desert, whom Asiatic superstition tells of,
who appear in friendly shapes to stragglers from the caravan, beckon to
them from afar, call them by their names, and lead them where they are
found no more. Was, then, all his kindness but a phosphoric radiance
covering something colder and more awful than the grave?
'It is very noble of you, Maud--it is angelic; your sympathy with a ruined
and despairing old man. But I fear you will recoil. I tell you frankly that
less than twenty thousand pounds will not extricate me from the quag of
ruin in which I am entangled--lost!'
'Recoil! Far from it. I'll do it. There must be some way.'
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