Meg, in her rude way, had spoken softly--almost under her breath; but no
prophecy shrieked by the Pythoness ever thundered so madly in the ears of
the hearer. I dare say that Meg fancied I was marvellously little moved by
her words. I felt my gaze grow intense, and my flesh and bones literally
freeze. She did not know that every word she spoke seemed to burst like a
blaze in my brain. She had delivered her frightful warning, and told
her story coarsely and bluntly, which, in effect, means distinctly and
concisely; and, I dare say, the announcement so made, like a quick bold
incision in surgery, was more tolerable than the slow imperfect mangling,
which falters and recedes and equivocates with torture. Madame was long
away. I sat down at the window, and tried to appreciate my dreadful
situation. I was stupid--the imagery was all frightful; but I beheld it as
we sometimes see horrors--heads cut off and houses burnt--in a dream, and
without the corresponding emotions. It did not seem as if all this were
really happening to me. I remember sitting at the window, and looking and
blinking at the opposite side of the building, like a person unable but
striving to see an object distinctly, and every minute pressing my hand to
the side of my head and saying--
'Oh, it won't be--it won't be--Oh no!--never!--it could not be!' And in
this stunned state Madame found me on her return.
But the valley of the shadow of death has its varieties of dread. The
'horror of great darkness' is disturbed by voices and illumed by sights.
There are periods of incapacity and collapse, followed by paroxysms
of active terror. Thus in my journey during those long hours I found
it--agonies subsiding into lethargies, and these breaking again into
frenzy. I sometimes wonder how I carried my reason safely through the
ordeal.
Madame locked the door, and amused herself with her own business, without
minding me, humming little nasal snatches of French airs, as she smirked on
her silken purchases displayed in the daylight. Suddenly it struck me that
it was very dark, considering how early it was. I looked at my watch;
it seemed to me a great effort of concentration to understand it. Four
o'clock, it said. Four o'clock! It would be dark at five--_night_ in one
hour!
'Madame, what o'clock is it? Is it evening?' I cried with my hand to my
forehead, like a person puzzled.
'Two three minutes past four. It had five minutes to four when I came
upstairs,' answered she, without interrupting her examination of a piece of
darned lace which she was holding close to her eyes at the window.
'Oh, Madame! _Madame!_ I'm frightened,' cried I, with a wild and piteous
voice, grasping her arm, and looking up, as shipwrecked people may their
last to heaven, into her inexorable eyes. Madame looked frightened too, I
thought, as she stared into my face. At last she said, rather angrily, and
shaking her arm loose--
'What you mean, cheaile?'
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