Algeria -- Fiction; British -- Algeria -- Fiction; France. Armée. Légion étrangère -- Fiction; Love stories
“She was great; no matter her name--she lives still. She was vile; aye,
but not in my sight till too late. Why is it that the heart which is
pure never makes ours beat upon it with the rapture sin gives? Through
month on month my picture grew, and my passion grew with it, fanned by
her hand. She knew that never would a man paint her beauty like one who
gave his soul for the price of success. I had my paradise; I was drunk;
and I painted as never the colors of mortals painted a woman. I think
even she was content; even she, who in her superb arrogance thought she
was matchless and deathless. Then came my reward; when the picture was
done, her fancy had changed! A light scorn, a careless laugh, a touch of
her fan on my cheek; could I not understand? Was I still such a child?
Must I be broken more harshly in to learn to give place? That was all!
And at last her lackey pushed me back with his wand from her gates! What
would you? I had not known what a great lady's illicit caprices meant;
I was still but a boy! She had killed me; she had struck my genius dead;
she had made earth my hell--what of that? She had her beauty eternal in
the picture she needed, and the whole city rang with her loveliness as
they looked on my work. I have never painted again. I came here. What of
that? An artist the less then, the world did not care; a life the less
soon, she will not care either!”
Then, as the words ended, a great wave of blood beat back his breath and
burst from the pent-up torture of his striving lungs, and stained
red the dark and silken masses of his beard. His comrade had seen the
hemorrhage many times; yet now he knew, as he had never known before,
that that was death.
As he held him upward in his arms, and shouted loud for help, the great
luminous eyes of the French soldier looked up at him through their mist
with the deep, fond gratitude that beams in the eyes of a dog as it
drops down to die, knowing one touch and one voice to the last.
“You do not forsake,” he murmured brokenly, while his voice ebbed
faintly away as the stream of his life flowed faster and faster out.
“It is over now--so best! If only I could have seen France once more.
France----”
He stretched his arms outward as he spoke, with the vain longing of
a hopeless love. Then a deep sigh quivered through his lips; his hand
strove to close on the hand of his comrade, and his head fell, resting
on the flushed blossoms of the rose-buds of Provence.
He was dead.
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