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Cecil listened gravely; it cut him more keenly than he showed to learn
the evils and the ruin that so closely menaced his house; and to find
how entirely his father's morbid mania against him severed him from
all the interests and all the confidence of his family, and left him
ignorant of matters even so nearly touching him as these.
“Your intelligence is not cheerful, little one,” he said, with a languid
stretch of his limbs; it was his nature to glide off painful subjects.
“And--I really am sleepy! You think there is no hope Royal would help
you?”
“I tell you I will shoot myself through the brain rather than ask him.”
Bertie moved restlessly in the soft depths of his lounging-chair; he
shunned worry, loathed it, escaped it at every portal, and here it came
to him just when he wanted to go to sleep. He could not divest
himself of the feeling that, had his own career been different,--less
extravagant, less dissipated, less indolently spendthrift,--he might
have exercised a better influence, and his brother's young life might
have been more prudently launched upon the world. He felt, too, with a
sharper pang than he had ever felt it for himself, the brilliant beggary
in which he lived, the utter inability he had to raise even the sum that
the boy now needed; a sum so trifling, in his set, and with his habits,
that he had betted it over and over again in a clubroom, on a single
game of whist. It cut him with a bitter, impatient pain; he was as
generous as the winds, and there is no trial keener to such a temper
than the poverty that paralyzes its power to give.
“It is no use to give you false hopes, young one,” he said gently. “I
can do nothing! You ought to know me by this time; and if you do, you
know too that if the money was mine it would be yours at a word--if you
don't, no matter! Frankly, Berk, I am all down-hill; my bills may be
called in any moment; when they are I must send in my papers to sell,
and cut the country, if my duns don't catch me before, which
they probably will; in which event I shall be to all intents and
purposes--dead. This is not lively conversation, but you will do me the
justice to say that it was not I who introduced it. Only--one word for
all, my boy; understand this: if I could help you I would, cost what it
might, but as matters stand--I cannot.”
And with that Cecil puffed a great cloud of smoke to envelope him; the
subject was painful, the denial wounded him by whom it had to be given
full as much as it could wound him whom it refused. Berkeley heard it
in silence; his head still hung down, his color changing, his hands
nervously playing with the bouquet-bottles, shutting and opening their
gold tops.
“No--yes--I know,” he said hurriedly; “I have no right to expect it, and
have been behaving like a cur, and--and--all that, I know. But--there is
one way you could save me, Bertie, if it isn't too much for a fellow to
ask.”
“I can't say I see the way, little one,” said Cecil, with a sigh. “What
is it?”
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