Not a word, not a sign had come to her of Pelleas. Taken into
Radamanth's house, served, petted, flattered, she went drearily
through its daily round, sat at its board, talked with the guestfolk,
while hope waited wide-eyed in her heart and kept her brave. Pelleas
had told her that he was for Winchester, and assuredly, she thought,
she might find him and confess all. She often kept watch hour by hour
at her window overlooking the street. In her walks she had a glance
for almost every man who passed on foot or horseback, till she grew
almost ashamed of herself, and feared for her modesty. Her eyes always
hungered for a red shield and harness, a black horse, a face grieving
in dark reserve and silence. At night she was often quite a child in
herself. She would take the little gold cross from her bosom and brood
over it. She even found herself whispering to the man as she lay in
bed, and stretching out her arms to him in the dark as in pain. For all
her pride and courage she was often bowed down and broken when no one
was near to see.
It was not long before she found a confidant to befriend her in her
distress of heart. Lilith, the goldsmith's daughter, had great brown
eyes, soft and very gentle; her face was wistful and white under
her straightly combed hair; she was a quiet girl, timid, but very
thoughtful for others. The two appealed each other by contrast. Lilith
had soon read trouble in Igraine's eyes, and had nestled to her in
soul, ready with many little kindnesses that were like dew in a dry
season. Igraine unbent to her, and suffered herself to be enfolded by
the other's sympathy.
One day she told her the whole distressful tale. It was in the garden
behind the house, a green and pleasant place opening on the river, and
flanked with stone. The two were in an arbour framed of laurels, its
floor mosaicked with quaint tiles. Igraine sat on the bench with Lilith
on a stool at her feet. They were both sad, for Lilith was a girl whose
heart answered strongly to any tale of unhappy mood. Igraine had made
mere truth of the matter, neither justifying nor embellishing. Her
clear bleak words were the more pathetic for their very simpleness.
Lilith had been crying softly to herself. Her brown eyes were very
misty when she turned her white face to Igraine's with a grievous
little sigh.
"What can I say to you?" she said.
"Nothing," said Igraine, taking her hands and smiling through misery.
"I have never the words I wish for, and when I feel most I can say
little."
"You understand; that is enough for me."
"Ah," said Lilith, with a fine blush and a shy look, "I think I can
feel for you, Igraine, almost to the full, though I seem such an Agnes.
I am woman enough to have learnt something that means all to a girl. I
am very sad for your sake."
"Child."
"I will try to comfort you."
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