Of course so abject a surrender to the slings and arrows of outrageous
Fortune could not last indefinitely. Human nature's safety-valve is its
extraordinary resilience. Hope springs eternal, etc. Nevertheless, it
took a small shock or so to arouse these two women at the mill from
their spiritless prostration. One night in early July, Carlisle came
suddenly upon the name of Hugo Canning in the foreign tattle column of a
London newspaper. She read, with intense fixity of gaze, that Hugo was
in Europe: in short, that Hugo was enjoying himself at Trouville, where
he was constantly seen in the company of the Honorable Kitty Belden,
second daughter of So-and-So, and so forth....
All this time, Carlisle had been taking upon herself most of the blame
for the quarrel and break. She had been distracted and unreasonable; she
had never explained to Hugo sensibly how it had all happened; it was
only natural that he should have misunderstood and misjudged, and in the
end lost his temper and said hard things which he did not mean. And he
was suffering by it no less than she: oh, be sure of that.... Now, as
she sat alone in her bedroom, the newspaper crumpled on the floor beside
her, there seemed to fall scales from her eyes, and she saw how bitterly
she had deceived herself. Where was now the love pledged to last
forever? Six weeks parted from her, and gaily gallivanting at the
slipper-toes of happier girls, whom the breath of trouble had
not touched.
Not even in this moment did Carlisle tax her once-betrothed with moral
wrong in the matter of the "telling," for that whole episode had
remained in her mind rather a flare-up of mysterious emotions than a
case of religious "conviction of sin" and atonement. Probably Hugo had
said and done what he thought was right then. But now it was clear to
her, as by a flash, that he had done wrong in quite a different way,
that he had committed the deadly sin of love. He had deserted her in the
moment of her greatest need of him. At the first pinch his boasted
mighty love had broken down; and, beneath all the disguises, it was such
a contemptible little pinch at that, only that he was afraid of what
people might say about her. Now he stepped the beaches of France, a
squire of dames unconcerned. Should she wear her heart in mourning for a
light-o'-love and a jilt? She would not. She would not....
Easier said than done, no doubt. Yet Cally's thoughts had at least
received a powerful new twist, which is the beginning of reconstruction.
And it was only a day or two later that mamma in her turn received an
arousing blow, in that debasing of her by the Associated Charities which
her niece-in-law, Henrietta Cooney, had mentioned to the Dabney House.
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