"You must have suffered beyond all power of words to speak it. The
world to you was fresh and full of interest. You were ambitious; full
of ardor and energy; loving hardship for its own sake, and obstacles
for the sake of conquering them. You were formed for action. It was
your element--your breath; and without it you did not care to live.
You were high in confidence, and believed that whatever you had once
resolved on must, sooner or later, come to pass."
"Why are you saying this?" demanded Morton, in great surprise.
"Out of this life you were suddenly snatched and buried in a dungeon;
shut off from all intercourse with men; your energies stifled; your
restless mind left to prey upon itself, or sustain a weary siege
against despair. Pain or danger you could have faced like a man; but
this passive misery must to you have been a daily death."
"Who," interrupted Morton, "taught you, a woman, to penetrate the
nature of a man, and describe sufferings that you never felt?"
"Your mind was like a spring of steel, springing up the more strongly
the harder it was pressed down. The suffering must have been deep
indeed from which you could not rebound. To have escaped, to have
reached home, and to have found any thing but relief and delight----"
"Home!" ejaculated Morton, bitterly, as a sharp memory of the anguish
which had met him on the threshold came over him. "A prison may be
borne with patience. Those are fortunate who have felt no keener
stabs."
The words, equivocal as they were, were scarcely spoken, when he had
repented them. Fanny Euston was silent for a moment. "Can it be
possible," she thought, "that the stories whispered about, that before
he went away he was engaged to Edith Leslie, are something more than
an idle rumor?"
"Why do you look at me so searchingly?" thought Morton, on his part,
as, raising his eyes, he saw those of his friend fixed on him in a
gaze in which a woman's curiosity was mingled with a fully equal share
of a woman's kindliness and sympathy. He hastened to escape from the
critical ground which he had approached.
"I can retort upon you," he said. "You have had your ordeal, too."
"What, do you see its traces? Do you find me scorched and withered?"
"I see," said Morton, "such traces as on gold that has passed through
the furnace."
"Truly, I have cause to rejoice, then; for I remember that, among
other compliments, you once intimated your opinion that I was
possessed with a devil."
"I am afraid that I pushed to its farthest limit my privilege of
cousinship."
"And yet, when I look back to that time, I cannot help thinking that
you had some reason for believing that an influence from the nether
world had some share in me."
"Now pardon me, if I am rude again. Looking at you, I can see the same
devil still."
"Indeed, and you will console me now, as you did then, by telling me
that a dash of viciousness is necessary to make a character
interesting."
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