“I am very serious,” she gaily continued. “I love you, only you, and
you—you foolish, little man, didn’t know that everything was only
make-believe and play-acting. How hard it often was for me to strike
you with the whip, when I would have rather taken your head and covered
it with kisses. But now we are through with that, aren’t we? I have
played my cruel role better than you expected, and now you will be
satisfied with my being a good, little wife who isn’t altogether
unattractive. Isn’t that so? We will live like rational people—”
“You will marry me!” I cried, overflowing with happiness.
“Yes—marry you—you dear, darling man,” whispered Wanda, kissing my
hands.
I drew her up to my breast.
“Now, you are no longer Gregor, my slave,” said she, “but Severin, the
dear man I love—”
“And he—you don’t love him?” I asked in agitation.
“How could you imagine my loving a man of his brutal type? You were
blind to everything, I was really afraid for you.”
“I almost killed myself for your sake.”
“Really?” she cried, “ah, I still tremble at the thought, that you were
already in the Arno.”
“But you saved me,” I replied, tenderly. “You hovered over the waters
and smiled, and your smile called me back to life.”
* * * * *
I have a curious feeling when I now hold her in my arms and she lies
silently against my breast and lets me kiss her and smiles. I feel like
one who has suddenly awakened out of a feverish delirium, or like a
shipwrecked man who has for many days battled with waves that
momentarily threatened to devour him and finally has found a safe
shore.
* * * * *
“I hate this Florence, where you have been so unhappy,” she declared,
as I was saying good-night to her. “I want to leave immediately,
tomorrow, you will be good enough to write a couple of letters for me,
and, while you are doing that, I will drive to the city to pay my
farewell visits. Is that satisfactory to you?”
“Of course, you dear, sweet, beautiful woman.”
* * * * *
Early in the morning she knocked at my door to ask how I had slept. Her
tenderness is positively wonderful. I should never have believed that
she could be so tender.
* * * * *
She has now been gone for over four hours. I have long since finished
the letters, and am now sitting in the gallery, looking down the street
to see whether I cannot discover her carriage in the distance. I am a
little worried about her, and yet I know there is no reason under
heaven why I should doubt or fear. However, a feeling of oppression
weighs me down, and I cannot rid myself of it. It is probably the
sufferings of the past days, which still cast their shadows into my
soul.
* * * * *
She is back, radiant with happiness and contentment.
“Well, has everything gone as you wished?” I asked tenderly, kissing
her hand.
“Yes, dear heart,” she replied, “and we shall leave to-night. Help me
pack my trunks.”
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