He took out his pipe and filled it slowly, his eyes wandering constantly
to the figure on the floor. Fancy that thing having the power to make or
mar his happiness. He could pick that much up with one hand. It looked
like twelve, with its long-stockinged relaxed legs, and its round,
short-haired head, and its swollen face of a child in a scrape. Make or
mar. He lit his pipe, repeating the phrase to himself, struck by it,
struck by the way it illuminated his position of bondage to love.
All his life, he reflected, he had only asked to be allowed to lavish
love, to make a wife happy. Look how he had loved Vera: with the utmost
devotion till she had killed it, and nothing but trouble as a reward.
Look how he loved that little thing on the floor. Passionately. And in
return, the first thing she did on being brought into his home as his
bride was to quarrel and ruin his birthday. She knew how keenly he had
looked forward to his birthday, she knew how the arrangements of the
whole honeymoon, how the very date of the wedding, had hinged on this
one day; yet she had deliberately ruined it. And having ruined it, what
did she care? Comes up here, if you please, and gets a book and goes
comfortably to sleep over it in front of the fire.
His mouth hardened still more. He pulled the arm-chair up and sat down
noisily in it, his eyes cold with resentment.
The book Lucy had been reading had dropped out of her hand when she fell
asleep, and lay open on the floor at his feet. If she used books in such
a way, Wemyss thought, he would be very careful how he let her have the
key of his bookcase. This was one of Vera's,--Vera hadn't taken any care
of her books either; she was always reading them. He slanted his head
sideways to see the title, to see what it was Lucy had considered more
worth her attention than her conduct that day towards her husband.
_Wuthering Heights_. He hadn't read it, but he fancied he had heard of
it as a morbid story. She might have been better employed, on their
first day at home, than in shutting herself away from him reading a
morbid story.
It was while he was looking at her with these thoughts stonily in his
eyes that Lucy, wakened by the smell of his pipe, opened hers. She
saw Everard sitting close to her, and had one of those moments
of instinctive happiness, of complete restoration to unshadowed
contentment, which sometimes follow immediately on waking up, before
there has been time to remember. It seems for a wonderful instant as
though all in the world were well. Doubts have vanished. Pain is gone.
And sometimes the moment continues even beyond remembrance.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account