Miss Entwhistle, her simple preparations being complete, had nothing
left to do but sit in one of those wicker work chairs with thin, hard,
cretonne-covered upholstery, which are sometimes found in inhospitable
spare-rooms and wait.
She found this bad for her _morale_. There wasn't a book in the room, or
she would have distracted her thoughts by reading. She didn't want
dinner. She would have best liked to get into the bed she hadn't yet
slept once in, and stay there till it was time to go home, but her pride
blushed scarlet at such a cowardly desire. She arranged herself,
therefore, in the chair, and, since she couldn't read, tried to remember
something to say over to herself instead, some poem, or verse of a poem,
to take her attention off the coming dinner; and she was shocked to
find, as she sat there with her eyes shut to keep out the light that
glared on her from the middle of the ceiling, that she could remember
nothing but fragments: loose bits floating derelict round her mind,
broken spars that didn't even belong, she was afraid, to any really
magnificent whole. How Jim would have scolded her,--Jim who forgot
nothing that was beautiful.
By nature cool, in pious habits bred,
She looked on husbands with a virgin's dread....
Now where did that come from? And why should it come at all?
Such was the tone and manners of them all
No married lady at the house would call....
And that, for instance? She couldn't remember ever having read any poem
that could contain these lines, yet she must have; she certainly hadn't
invented them.
And this,--an absurd German thing Jim used to quote and laugh at:
Der Sultan winkt, Zuleika schweigt,
Und zeigt sich gänzlich abgeneigt....
Why should a thing like that rise now to the surface of her mind and
float round on it, while all the noble verse she had read and enjoyed,
which would have been of such use and support to her at this juncture,
was nowhere to be found, not a shred of it, in any corner of her brain?
What a brain, thought Miss Entwhistle, disgusted, sitting up very
straight in the wickerwork chair, her hands folded in her lap, her eyes
shut; what a contemptible, anæmic brain, deserting her like this, only
able to throw up to the surface when stirred, out of all the store of
splendid stuff put so assiduously into it during years and years of
life, couplets.
A sound she hadn't yet heard began to crawl round the house, and, even
while she wondered what it was, increased and increased till it seemed
to her at last as if it must fill the universe and reach to Eaton
Terrace.
It was that gong. Become active. Heavens, and what activity. She
listened amazed. The time it went on! It went on and on, beating in her
ears like the crack of doom.
When the three great final strokes were succeeded by silence, she got up
from her chair. The moment had come. A last couplet floated through her
brain,--her brain seemed to clutch at it:
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