"It is justice that moves me, more than my personal inclination," Ruth
went on. "I will not deny, Mr. Calhoun, that in some ways, my
husband's death has freed me from certain restrictions that hampered
and galled me. I shouldn't mention this to you, but I know the sisters
have told you that I have, in many ways, gone counter to Mr.
Schuyler's wishes, since I have been my own mistress. It is true. He
and I disagreed greatly on matters of the household and matters of my
personal comfort and convenience. Now that I can do so, I am arranging
my life differently. It is natural that I should do this, but the
Schuyler ladies think that I have begun indecently soon. I say this,
not by way of apology, but because I want you to understand."
Ruth looked very sweet and wistful, as she seemed to make a bid for my
sympathy. I was impressed anew by the soft pallor of her face and the
sweet purity of her gray eyes. I contrasted her with Vicky Van. One,
the embodiment of life and gayety, the other a gentle, dovelike
personality, which, however, hinted sometimes at hidden fires. I
believed that Ruth Schuyler had been so repressed, so dominated by her
brute of a husband, that her nature had never expanded to its own
possibilities.
And, like a blinding flash of lightning, the knowledge came to me that
I loved her! It was no uncertain conviction. The fact sprang
full-armed, to my brain, and my heart swelled with the bliss of it.
I scarcely dared look at her. I couldn't tell her--yet. I had no
reason to think she cared for me, other than as the merest
acquaintance, yet, then and there, I vowed to myself that she should
care.
I thought of Vicky Van--poor little Vicky. She had interested me--did
interest me, but in only a friendly way. Indeed, my interest in her
was prompted by sympathy for her luckless position and the trust she
had reposed in me, I would hold her trust sacred. I would never play
false to Vicky Van. But henceforth and forever my heart and soul
belonged to my liege lady, my angel-faced Ruth.
"What is the matter, Mr. Calhoun?" I heard her saying, and I looked up
to see her smiling almost gayly at me. "Your thoughts seem to be a
thousand miles away!"
"Oh, not so far as that," I protested. Somehow, I felt buoyantly
happy. I had no wish to tell her of my love, at present I was quite
content to worship her in secret, and I exulted in a sort of
clairvoyant knowledge that I should yet win her. I smiled into her
dear eyes, as I continued: "They were really round the corner in Vicky
Van's house."
To my delight she pouted a little. "Let's talk of something else," she
said. "I've no doubt Miss Van Allen is charming, and her home a
perfect gem, but I own up I'm not anxious to discuss her all the time
and with every one."
"You shall be exempt from it with me," I promised. "Henceforth her
name is taboo between us, and you shall choose our subjects yourself."
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