The new coat made the effort seem possible. Not, oh, not at all through
vanity, but a new coat, her own,--she enjoyed, too, in anticipation,
showing it to Irma, though Irma would be sure to say something about it
designed to dim its glory.
Maria was bringing in the oatmeal soup that she had fully intended
since the evening before to make for Frau Stacher ... she knew
Fanny. It was steaming up pleasantly from its little blue and white
tureen and Fanny proceeded to ladle it out generously. She had
pushed the card-table close to her Tante Ilde's chair and drawn up a
little stool for herself on the other side. Frau Stacher took a few
mouthfuls,--delicious, there was certainly some milk in it. Tired as
she was she couldn't be mistaken about there being milk in it, but all
the same she found she wasn't hungry. She forced it down however, to
the last drop; Fanny mustn't think she didn't like it.
Fanny had jumped up restlessly after watching her take the first
spoonful and lighted a cigarette and then sat down again, bending
forward, her elbows on her knees, and her white hand, with its immense
sapphire ring, just one big, square stone, putting the cigarette up
to her red mouth, her rosily manicured finger tips flickering the ash
from it on to the floor. The pale silken sleeves would ripple back and
show Fanny's dimpled elbows. She took a little soup herself, but, like
her aunt, showed no enthusiasm when Maria brought in a cutlet and some
fried potatoes.
Frau Stacher knew well Maria's fine kitchen hand. So many years she
had sat at her brother's table and seen Maria put just such cutlets on
with those unrivalled fried potatoes. Frau Stacher was pierced cruelly
for a moment by the memories these familiar things evoked; the children
sitting around the table, talking and laughing, and her brother Heinie,
who had loved them all impartially, looking indulgently from one to
another. Indeed it seemed the most natural of things to each of the
three women; a thing they'd done a thousand times together.
But after her first mouthful of the cutlet Frau Stacher knew she wasn't
going to be able to eat it. Its odor was delicious, the edges of the
tender veal were goldly brown, and towards the middle of the piece it
could easily be seen how white the meat was.
"I believe you're ill, Tanterl," said Fanny again looking sharply at
her. "You rest here while I take Kaethe and Leo."
"But I want to go with you," she returned imploringly, "I don't want to
leave you."
Tante Ilde couldn't have told why she was so determined to go with
Fanny, but the longing took her out of her usual gently acquiescent
ways.... As if Fanny was to do something solemn, important for her, and
she mustn't be separated from her. As if she had been warned that by
keeping close to Fanny she would avoid some last, some ultimate horror.
It was suddenly as clear as that.
"It's only a little cold I've got," she repeated beseechingly, like a
child imploring some permission.
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