They were driving slowly up over the noisy cobble stones of the
Jacquingasse on their way to the cemetery, Kaethe and Fanny and Tante
Ilde on the back seat of the big, black mourning coach. Kaethe, wedged
between them, was holding on her lap the white wreath. Opposite sat the
Professor. On his knees for a last time was Carli; Carli in his little
white box; Carli on his first and only journey.
The sable horses struck the cobble stones with their slow, accustomed
beat. It seemed to Frau Stacher the loudest sound she had ever
heard, and "some day for you, some day for you" seemed cadenced
unmistakably....
In the dark Minorite church Fanny had been a model of piety and
recollection. She crossed herself so slowly, so devoutly. She buried
her face in her hands and knelt long without fidgeting on the hard,
uncomfortable stool. She took holy water and held a tip of her finger
to Kaethe as they went out and then to Tante Ilde and to Leo. She and
Kaethe had always loved each other very much. Fanny after her wont was
going through the afternoon without stint or sloppiness. It would be,
in her hands, an "entire" matter.
As they drove along Kaethe rested her head on her sister's warm,
scented shoulder. Her eyes were dry, but her face was haggard from the
night.
No one noticed that Tante Ilde didn't say a word. Kaethe and Leo were
with their child a last time and Fanny, who generally selected pleasant
things to do, was finding it more wearing than she had thought and
was plunged in her own reflections. At one moment she said to herself
"I'm not going to be able to stick it out," and forgot their griefs
and miserably let her thoughts turn to the man she truly loved, and
if everything in the world, every last thing, had been different....
Then suddenly she fell to cursing in her heart a certain predatory
gentleman whom she had known in the "beginning," no, before the
"beginning," but she pulled herself up round, that carriage was no
place for curses, neither was it the moment. Then she caught sight of
her face above Eberhardt's right shoulder. It was distinctly mirrored
in the reflecting surface of the glass at his back, formed by the heavy
black flaps of the driver's coat. It was white, white as the coffin
on Eberhardt's lap, and the eyes were deep, dark pits, almost as if
the flesh had fallen away from them. She was horribly frightened. What
was the warm thing that went out of you and after it went out you were
put in a box?... She jerked her head so that it slipped from view. But
she got Tante Ilde's instead.... It was just dreadful.... All right as
long as you lived, but there came a time when beauty, which had been
so helpful, was clearly of no avail.... The activities of family and
town were concentrated on getting you into a box and then ... Fanny who
believed in hell and damnation, drew in her breath shudderingly. She
was thankful to feel Kaethe's warm, living head against her shoulder.
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