There was a certain protocol observed even at those bread-lines. No one
with impunity was caught taking another's place, that is unless there
was a stampede by those behind if the news got out that there was very
little left. Then what a pushing and hurtling! Something terrible,
hard, relentless would suddenly come up out of the crowd that had
seemed composed of pale, exhausted men and women and underfed, listless
children. That precious loaf that Lilli generally managed to bring
home, would, with some of the equally precious cocoa that was in the
heavenly package they got from the "Friends" in the Franzensplatz be
the backbone, somewhat weak, it is true, of their day. The package and
the wonders it contained,--the little tin of lard, the little box of
sugar, the little bag of flour, the coffee, though it could not fatten
a family of nine people, dulled noticeably the sharpest edge of their
hunger and helped to get them through the week. It was really equal
to several meals if you counted that way. Then sometimes a raven in
the shape of old Maria, tapping, flew in at the door. As for the other
meals, the Eberhardts went without them.
It was a mystery to the Professor, surpassing any he had ever before
tried to solve, that he could no longer make a living out of his grey
matter. Being a "genius" was plainly a misfortune. It was the working
classes, fortunate possessors of muscle, that frequented butcher
and delicatessen shops, while the intellectuals and their families
starved. It made science look like something seen through the big end
of a telescope. Biology? Eberhardt got so that he hated the very word.
The only science of life that was of any use was knowing how to get
something to put into your family's stomach and your own. Naturally
mild as summer dew, Eberhardt had been getting bitter.
Those radiant years lay far behind, when a word, a thought would set
his brain on fire, startling into instant action those secret springs
of his talent; when the imponderable why and whence of man's being
was the paramount interest of life. The ponderable things necessary
to sustain that life came naturally, undisturbingly in the train
of work. Now his gifts were useless; the world in which they had
once functioned so easily, so shiningly, was in some chill, shadowy
abeyance. Again and again came from his lips nostalgically: "Süsses
Leben! Schöne, freundliche Gewohnheit des Daseins und Wirkens! von dir
soll ich scheiden!" "Sweet life, sweet, pleasant habit of being and
activity! Must I part from thee?"
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