Then Tante Ilde, who had been both entranced and troubled at the scene,
spoke for the first time and very gently:
"She'll bring a blessing into the house, Leo."
At that Eberhardt turned and greeted her affectionately.
"Ah, Tante Ilde, pardon, it's good to see you." And as he embraced
her his act of compassion was still so warm about him that she was
conscious of some gentle heat, almost corporeal, emanating from him.
Though his now constant preoccupation as to ways and means was added
to those temperamental fits of abstraction, suddenly in that moment he
saw distinctly the shape and substance of Tante Ilde's hard destiny.
That frail figure, in that worn striped gown, Eberhardt who never
knew what women wore, was suddenly conscious of its old-fashioned
cut, its threadbareness, perhaps it was its symbolic sense working
on his imagination that saw at times both more and less than the run
of men. He perceived, as under a microscope, in all its magnified
significance, not alone that sagging face, that furrowed brow, that
thinning hair, those broad, pale, colorless eyes reflecting something
immeasurably patient under the double burden of old age and penury,
but it was old age itself, in all its component parts that separated,
as if under his glass, on his table, resolving themselves sharply into
their elements. He was aghast at what he saw--those diminutions, those
withdrawals--more horrified than at the accidental tragedy of the
Privatdozent Koellner. This was integral, final. She could hope for
nothing more from time, that was clear,--time that brings so surely
both good and evil, that very time that was his hope had nothing more
for her. He repressed a cry....
Then suddenly, or so it seemed, they all got very gay again, with an
infectious gayety. The children were tumbling about noisily after their
good meal. The little stranger kept looking from one to the other. That
desperate apprehension was wiped from her face. This that was happening
was clearly good. She hadn't seen anyone smile for a long time, except
so sadly that they might as well have wept. She had entirely forgotten
about laughing. But all this was good, good, that she knew out of her
six years.
Then Hansi climbed up on his father's lap and asked him what he had had
for dinner.
"A fine cup of cocoa, so hot it burnt my tongue, and a heaping plate
of very good beans, only I didn't feel hungry today," he paused on the
familiar phrase, and from his pocket he produced two pieces of zwieback.
Kaethe had been watching him, suspecting his next gesture.
"Eat it yourself, Leo," she interposed quickly, almost sternly, "we've
had all we can possibly eat. Tante Ilde brought _so_ much."
But Eberhardt with no hesitation in his hand or heart, or at least none
that one could have noticed, said to the strange child, the child of
whose existence he had been unaware an hour before:
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