“He is better this morning, M'mselle. We march—we are getting on. Good
news will put the heart into you.”
Christian thought: 'How sweet every one is to-day!'
Even the Villa seemed to greet her, with the sun aslant on it; and the
trees, trembling and weeping golden tears. At the cathedral she was
early for the service, but here and there were figures on their knees;
the faint, sickly odour of long-burnt incense clung in the air; a priest
moved silently at the far end. She knelt, and when at last she rose the
service had begun. With the sound of the intoning a sense of peace came
to her—the peace of resolution. For good or bad she felt that she had
faced her fate.
She went out with a look of quiet serenity and walked home along the
dyke. Close to Harz's studio she sat down. Now—it was her own; all that
had belonged to him, that had ever had a part in him.
An old beggar, who had been watching her, came gently from behind.
“Gracious lady!” he said, peering at her eyes, “this is the lucky day
for you. I have lost my luck.”
Christian opened her purse, there was only one coin in it, a gold piece;
the beggar's eyes sparkled.
She thought suddenly: 'It's no longer mine; I must begin to be careful,'
but she felt ashamed when she looked at the old man.
“I am sorry,” she said; “yesterday I would have given you this, but—but
now it's already given.”
He seemed so old and poor—what could she give him? She unhooked a little
silver brooch at her throat. “You will get something for that,” she
said; “it's better than nothing. I am very sorry you are so old and
poor.”
The beggar crossed himself. “Gracious lady,” he muttered, “may you never
want!”
Christian hurried on; the rustling of leaves soon carried the words
away. She did not feel inclined to go in, and crossing the bridge began
to climb the hill. There was a gentle breeze, drifting the clouds across
the sun; lizards darted out over the walls, looked at her, and whisked
away.
The sunshine, dappling through the tops of trees, gashed down on a
torrent. The earth smelt sweet, the vineyards round the white farms
glistened; everything seemed to leap and dance with sap and life; it was
a moment of Spring in midsummer. Christian walked on, wondering at her
own happiness.
'Am I heartless?' she thought. 'I am going to leave him—I am going into
life; I shall have to fight now, there'll be no looking back.'
The path broke away and wound down to the level of the torrent; on the
other side it rose again, and was lost among trees. The woods were dank;
she hastened home.
In her room she began to pack, sorting and tearing up old letters. 'Only
one thing matters,' she thought; 'singleness of heart; to see your way,
and keep to it with all your might.'
She looked up and saw Barbi standing before her with towels in her
hands, and a scared face.
“Are you going a journey, gnadiges Fraulein?”
“I am going away to be married, Barbi,” said Christian at last; “don't
speak of it to any one, please.”
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