Autobiographical fiction; British -- Belgium -- Fiction; Brussels (Belgium) -- Fiction; Love stories; Women teachers -- Fiction
“I am not conscious of you, monsieur, or of any other having excited
such emotion as you indicate,” was my answer; and in giving it, I again
surpassed my usual self, and achieved a neat, frosty falsehood.
“But what did I say?” he pursued; “tell me: I was angry: I have
forgotten my words; what were they?”
“Such as it is best to forget!” said I, still quite calm and chill.
“Then it was _my_ words which wounded you? Consider them unsaid: permit
my retractation; accord my pardon.”
“I am not angry, Monsieur.”
“Then you are worse than angry—grieved. Forgive me, Miss Lucy.”
“M. Emanuel, I _do_ forgive you.”
“Let me hear you say, in the voice natural to you, and not in that
alien tone, ‘Mon ami, je vous pardonne.’”
He made me smile. Who could help smiling at his wistfulness, his
simplicity, his earnestness?
“Bon!” he cried. “Voilà que le jour va poindre! Dites donc, mon ami.”
“Monsieur Paul, je vous pardonne.”
“I will have no monsieur: speak the other word, or I shall not believe
you sincere: another effort—_mon ami_, or else in English,—my friend!”
Now, “my friend” had rather another sound and significancy than “_mon
ami_;” it did not breathe the same sense of domestic and intimate
affection; “_mon ami_” I could _not_ say to M. Paul; “my friend,” I
could, and did say without difficulty. This distinction existed not for
him, however, and he was quite satisfied with the English phrase. He
smiled. You should have seen him smile, reader; and you should have
marked the difference between his countenance now, and that he wore
half an hour ago. I cannot affirm that I had ever witnessed the smile
of pleasure, or content, or kindness round M. Paul’s lips, or in his
eyes before. The ironic, the sarcastic, the disdainful, the
passionately exultant, I had hundreds of times seen him express by what
he called a smile, but any illuminated sign of milder or warmer
feelings struck me as wholly new in his visage. It changed it as from a
mask to a face: the deep lines left his features; the very complexion
seemed clearer and fresher; that swart, sallow, southern darkness which
spoke his Spanish blood, became displaced by a lighter hue. I know not
that I have ever seen in any other human face an equal metamorphosis
from a similar cause. He now took me to the carriage: at the same
moment M. de Bassompierre came out with his niece.
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