Domestic fiction; English fiction -- 19th century; Psychological fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
A weak lament from the weak soul of an undisciplined girl. The red
light grew and glowed redder in the east, and then the yellow sun shone
through gray drifting clouds, and the new day was born. Slumber and
Violet had parted company for the last week. Her mind had been too full
of images; the curtain of sleep would not hide them. Frame and mind
were both alike worn out, as she lay in the broadening light, lonely,
forsaken, unpitied, bearing her great sorrow, just as she must have
borne the toothache, or any other corporal pain.
She rose at seven, feeling unspeakably tired, dressed herself slowly
and dawdlingly, thinking of Lady Mabel. What an event her rising and
dressing would be this morning--the flurried maids, the indulgent
mother; the pure white garments, glistening in the tempered sunlight;
the luxurious room, with its subdued colouring, its perfume of
freshly-cut flowers; the dainty breakfast-tray, on a table by an open
window; the shower of congratulatory letters, and the last delivery of
wedding gifts. Vixen could imagine the scene, with its every detail.
And Roderick, what of him? She could not so easily picture the
companion of her childhood on this fateful morning of his life. She
could not imagine him happy: she dared not fancy him miserable. It was
safer to make a great effort and shut that familiar figure out of her
mind altogether.
Oh, what a dismal ceremony the eight--o'clock breakfast, _tete-a-tete_
with Miss Skipwith, seemed on this particular morning! Even that
preoccupied lady was constrained to notice Violet's exceeding pallor.
"My dear, you are ill!" she exclaimed. "Your face is as white as a
sheet of paper, and your eyes have dark rings around them."
"I am not ill, but I have been sleeping badly of late."
"My dear child, you need occupation; you want an aim. The purposeless
life you are leading must result badly. Why can you not devise some
pursuit to fill your idle hours? Far be it from me to interfere with
your liberty; but I confess that it grieves me to see youth, and no
doubt some measure of ability, so wasted. Why do you not strive to
continue your education? Self-culture is the highest form of
improvement. My books are at your disposal."
"Dear Miss Skipwith, your books are all theological," said Vixen
wearily, "and I don't care for theology. As for my education, I am not
utterly neglecting it. I read Schiller till my eyes ache."
"One shallow German poet is not the beginning and end of education,"
replied Miss Skipwith. "I should like you to take larger views of
woman's work in the world."
"My work in the world is to live quietly, and not to trouble anyone,"
said Vixen, with a sigh.
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