Social problems; Socialism -- United States; Working class -- United States
This was because I was strong myself. By strong I mean that I had good
health and hard muscles, both of which possessions are easily accounted
for. I had lived my childhood on California ranches, my boyhood hustling
newspapers on the streets of a healthy Western city, and my youth on the
ozone-laden waters of San Francisco Bay and the Pacific Ocean. I loved
life in the open, and I toiled in the open, at the hardest kinds of work.
Learning no trade, but drifting along from job to job, I looked on the
world and called it good, every bit of it. Let me repeat, this optimism
was because I was healthy and strong, bothered with neither aches nor
weaknesses, never turned down by the boss because I did not look fit,
able always to get a job at shovelling coal, sailorizing, or manual labor
of some sort.
And because of all this, exulting in my young life, able to hold my own
at work or fight, I was a rampant individualist. It was very natural. I
was a winner. Wherefore I called the game, as I saw it played, or
thought I saw it played, a very proper game for MEN. To be a MAN was to
write man in large capitals on my heart. To adventure like a man, and
fight like a man, and do a man's work (even for a boy's pay)--these were
things that reached right in and gripped hold of me as no other thing
could. And I looked ahead into long vistas of a hazy and interminable
future, into which, playing what I conceived to be MAN'S game, I should
continue to travel with unfailing health, without accidents, and with
muscles ever vigorous. As I say, this future was interminable. I could
see myself only raging through life without end like one of Nietzsche's
_blond-beasts_, lustfully roving and conquering by sheer superiority and
strength.
As for the unfortunates, the sick, and ailing, and old, and maimed, I
must confess I hardly thought of them at all, save that I vaguely felt
that they, barring accidents, could be as good as I if they wanted to
real hard, and could work just as well. Accidents? Well, they
represented FATE, also spelled out in capitals, and there was no getting
around FATE. Napoleon had had an accident at Waterloo, but that did not
dampen my desire to be another and later Napoleon. Further, the optimism
bred of a stomach which could digest scrap iron and a body which
flourished on hardships did not permit me to consider accidents as even
remotely related to my glorious personality.
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